1 00:00:03,931 --> 00:00:07,620 Seana: MY MIND SCARES ME. MY BODY SCARES ME. 2 00:00:07,620 --> 00:00:10,448 I FEEL LIKE A MONSTER JUST WALKING AROUND. 3 00:00:16,965 --> 00:00:18,827 Woman: SOMEWHERE IN ME 4 00:00:18,827 --> 00:00:20,413 IS THIS LITTLE GLIMMER OF HOPE. 5 00:00:20,413 --> 00:00:22,551 I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL PERSON. 6 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:37,103 YOU CAN'T DO IT, AND THEN I JUST GET MAD. 7 00:00:37,103 --> 00:00:38,758 Woman IF I DON'T MAKE A CHANGE NOW, 8 00:00:38,758 --> 00:00:40,551 I'M SCARED IT'S GONNA BE TOO LATE. 9 00:00:46,241 --> 00:00:47,620 IT HURTS! 10 00:00:47,620 --> 00:00:50,000 Woman I REFUSE TO STOP FIGHTING. 11 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:52,206 I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR MY CHILDREN. 12 00:00:57,586 --> 00:00:59,517 SO, WHAT IS WITH THAT? 13 00:00:59,517 --> 00:01:01,310 Seana: I DON'T KNOW. 14 00:01:01,310 --> 00:01:04,793 YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF WITH THE FOOD, BE MY GUEST. 15 00:01:04,793 --> 00:01:07,793 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 16 00:01:07,793 --> 00:01:10,758 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 17 00:01:34,793 --> 00:01:36,827 Seana: EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE 18 00:01:36,827 --> 00:01:39,655 FEELS LIKE IT'S HARDER THAN THE LAST 19 00:01:39,655 --> 00:01:43,068 AND THAT THINGS JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE FOR ME 20 00:01:43,068 --> 00:01:44,586 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 21 00:01:44,586 --> 00:01:47,724 AND I'M SO TIRED OF IT AND ALL THE PAIN. 22 00:01:47,724 --> 00:01:51,379 I DON'T WANT TO LIVE THIS WAY BECAUSE I HATE THE SIGHT OF ME. 23 00:01:51,379 --> 00:01:53,655 IT'S JUST TOO BIG TO BE NORMAL, 24 00:01:53,655 --> 00:01:56,586 AND IT KEEPS ME FROM BEING ABLE TO DO A LOT, 25 00:01:56,586 --> 00:01:58,655 SO I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED MOST OF THE TIME 26 00:01:58,655 --> 00:02:01,413 BECAUSE OF HOW HARD IT IS TO MOVE AND GET AROUND. 27 00:02:01,413 --> 00:02:04,241 IT'S HARD TO WALK. IT'S HARD TO BE ABLE TO STAND 28 00:02:04,241 --> 00:02:07,172 FOR MORE THAN TWO MINUTES AT A TIME. 29 00:02:07,172 --> 00:02:10,034 AND THAT TIME GETS LESS AS I GET BIGGER 30 00:02:10,034 --> 00:02:13,034 AND IT HURTS QUICKER, SO I'M LOSING MY ABILITY TO MOVE 31 00:02:13,034 --> 00:02:16,344 AND DO THINGS, AND THAT REALLY UPSETS ME 32 00:02:16,344 --> 00:02:20,413 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY INDEPENDENCE. 33 00:02:20,413 --> 00:02:22,724 I CAN AT LEAST STILL CLEAN MYSELF. 34 00:02:22,724 --> 00:02:25,931 MY MOM HIRED A FRIEND OF MINE, DERRICKUS, TO BE MY CARETAKER, 35 00:02:25,931 --> 00:02:27,275 BECAUSE I LIVE WITH HER 36 00:02:27,275 --> 00:02:29,482 BUT SHE TRAVELS MOST OF THE YEAR. 37 00:02:29,482 --> 00:02:33,517 SO, DERRICKUS IS THERE TO HELP ME DO A LOT WHILE SHE'S GONE. 38 00:02:33,517 --> 00:02:36,413 BUT I DON'T WANT HIM TO EVER HAVE TO HELP ME WITH THIS, 39 00:02:36,413 --> 00:02:39,034 OR ASK ANYONE TO DO THAT FOR ME. 40 00:02:39,034 --> 00:02:41,862 BUT IT'S ALREADY ALMOST TOO HARD FOR ME TO DO ALL THE TIME, 41 00:02:41,862 --> 00:02:44,379 SO SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT JUST NOT DOING IT. 42 00:02:44,379 --> 00:02:45,827 BUT THEN WHEN YOU'RE BIG LIKE ME 43 00:02:45,827 --> 00:02:49,206 AND HAVE ALL THESE FOLDS, YOU CHAFE A LOT, 44 00:02:49,206 --> 00:02:50,862 AND THEN YOU GET BLISTERS AND SORES 45 00:02:50,862 --> 00:02:53,275 AND THAT CAN GET INFECTED EASILY. 46 00:02:53,275 --> 00:02:57,034 SO, I PUSH MYSELF TO JUST DO IT AND GET IT OVER WITH, 47 00:02:57,034 --> 00:02:58,413 BUT I STILL CAN'T REALLY DO IT WELL 48 00:02:58,413 --> 00:02:59,655 AND GET TO ALL THE AREAS 49 00:02:59,655 --> 00:03:01,482 WHERE I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL ABOUT, 50 00:03:01,482 --> 00:03:03,758 WITH ALL THE SORES AND STUFF. 51 00:03:03,758 --> 00:03:06,551 SO, I KNOW IT'S GETTING TO A DANGEROUS PLACE WITH ME, 52 00:03:06,551 --> 00:03:08,689 AND I HATE IT. 53 00:03:08,689 --> 00:03:12,517 I HATE HOW MY LIFE IS, BUT I MOSTLY JUST HATE MY BODY. 54 00:03:12,517 --> 00:03:17,344 I HATE MY BODY MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WHOLE WORLD. 55 00:03:17,344 --> 00:03:21,000 I FEEL LIKE A MONSTER JUST WALKING AROUND. 56 00:03:23,862 --> 00:03:26,551 MY LEGS AND MY FEET DISGUST ME THE MOST ABOUT MY BODY. 57 00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:33,344 THEY DON'T EVEN SEEM HUMAN ANYMORE, NONE OF ME DOES, 58 00:03:33,344 --> 00:03:36,827 SO I DON'T EVEN WANT TO LOOK AT MYSELF AT ALL ANYMORE 59 00:03:36,827 --> 00:03:40,655 BECAUSE I'M EMBARRASSED OF WHAT I'VE DONE TO MYSELF AND MY LIFE. 60 00:03:40,655 --> 00:03:43,241 I'M 22 YEARS OLD. 61 00:03:43,241 --> 00:03:47,724 I SHOULD BE, LIKE, IN COLLEGE, PARTYING, HAVING FUN, 62 00:03:47,724 --> 00:03:49,551 LIVING MY LIFE, BUT I CAN'T... 63 00:03:53,379 --> 00:03:57,586 ...ALL BECAUSE I'VE LET FOOD TAKE THAT ALL AWAY FROM ME. 64 00:03:57,586 --> 00:04:01,241 AT THIS POINT, I CAN'T REALLY STOP EATING. 65 00:04:01,241 --> 00:04:05,103 I DON'T WANT TO BECAUSE IT'S THE ONLY GOOD PART OF MY DAY. 66 00:04:06,896 --> 00:04:08,689 AND I CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF IT. 67 00:04:08,689 --> 00:04:10,034 I ALWAYS WANT SOMETHING, 68 00:04:10,034 --> 00:04:12,137 AND IT'S LIKE MY HUNGER NEVER STOPS. 69 00:04:20,137 --> 00:04:21,827 HI. HEY, SEANA. 70 00:04:27,344 --> 00:04:30,034 IT'S SO HOT, JEEZ LOUISE. 71 00:04:30,034 --> 00:04:31,931 SO, WE GOT YOUR STUFF. 72 00:04:31,931 --> 00:04:34,793 YES. 73 00:04:34,793 --> 00:04:36,241 Seana: USUALLY, I START EATING 74 00:04:36,241 --> 00:04:38,379 WHEN DERRICKUS COMES OVER TO CHECK ON ME. 75 00:04:38,379 --> 00:04:41,275 HE BRINGS ME SOMETHING TO EAT OR HE'LL MAKE IT FOR ME. 76 00:04:41,275 --> 00:04:42,724 Derrickus: HOW YOU FEELING TODAY? 77 00:04:42,724 --> 00:04:45,517 MY BACK HURTS. SAME OLD, SAME OLD. 78 00:04:45,517 --> 00:04:46,586 DID YOU EAT? 79 00:04:46,586 --> 00:04:48,862 NO. CAN YOU MAKE ME SOME BURRITOS? 80 00:04:48,862 --> 00:04:50,103 OKAY. AND HASH BROWNS? 81 00:04:50,103 --> 00:04:52,689 OKAY. HOW MANY DO YOU WANT? 82 00:04:52,689 --> 00:04:53,965 UM, FOUR. 83 00:04:53,965 --> 00:04:57,172 OKAY. 84 00:04:57,172 --> 00:04:58,172 FOUR BURRITOS AND WHAT? 85 00:04:59,206 --> 00:05:00,965 OKAY. 86 00:05:03,034 --> 00:05:05,931 Derrickus: SEANA TO ME IS MORE LIKE FAMILY THAN A FRIEND, 87 00:05:05,931 --> 00:05:08,103 AND I JUST WANT TO SEE HER HAPPY. 88 00:05:08,103 --> 00:05:09,551 I TRY TO HELP HER AS MUCH AS I CAN, 89 00:05:09,551 --> 00:05:12,413 BUT EVERY TIME I COOK SOMETHING, OR I HELP HER PREPARE HER MEALS, 90 00:05:12,413 --> 00:05:17,310 I GIVE IT TO HER IN PORTIONS AND THAT DON'T SEEM LIKE ENOUGH. 91 00:05:17,310 --> 00:05:19,517 BECAUSE SHE EATS WHEN THE SUN COME UP 92 00:05:19,517 --> 00:05:21,517 AND EATS WHEN IT GOES DOWN. 93 00:05:21,517 --> 00:05:23,551 SHE DON'T KNOW WHEN TO STOP. 94 00:05:23,551 --> 00:05:25,241 SOMETIMES I FEEL HELPLESS, 95 00:05:25,241 --> 00:05:27,517 BUT I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER HURT, 96 00:05:27,517 --> 00:05:29,379 SO I GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANT. 97 00:05:32,413 --> 00:05:34,517 Seana: ONCE I'M EATING, EVERYTHING BECOMES OKAY. 98 00:05:34,517 --> 00:05:37,620 IT'S HARD TO EVEN DESCRIBE WHAT IT REALLY DOES FOR ME, 99 00:05:37,620 --> 00:05:41,758 BECAUSE IT'S LIKE IT TAKES ME TO THIS WHOLE OTHER PLACE. 100 00:05:41,758 --> 00:05:44,482 EATING TO ME IS MY SAFE HAVEN. 101 00:05:44,482 --> 00:05:46,413 IT JUST MAKES ME HAPPY. 102 00:05:46,413 --> 00:05:49,103 NO MATTER HOW SAD I AM, IT MAKES ME HAPPY. 103 00:05:49,103 --> 00:05:51,551 I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE 104 00:05:51,551 --> 00:05:53,586 THAT MAKES ME FEEL THAT WAY. 105 00:05:53,586 --> 00:05:55,827 I ALWAYS ZONE OUT WHEN I HAVE FOOD, 106 00:05:55,827 --> 00:05:57,620 LIKE I'M IN A TRANCE SOMETIMES, 107 00:05:57,620 --> 00:06:00,586 AND I DON'T SNAP OUT OF IT UNTIL THE FOOD IS GONE. 108 00:06:00,586 --> 00:06:03,862 BUT THEN I JUST WANT MORE SO I CAN GO BACK TO THAT 109 00:06:03,862 --> 00:06:06,172 BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES IT ALL BETTER. 110 00:06:06,172 --> 00:06:08,206 I FEEL LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I GO THROUGH, 111 00:06:08,206 --> 00:06:10,206 FOOD WILL ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. 112 00:06:10,206 --> 00:06:13,275 SO, HOW DO YOU STOP SOMETHING THAT DOES THAT FOR YOU? 113 00:06:13,275 --> 00:06:15,137 YOU CAN'T REALLY. 114 00:06:15,137 --> 00:06:19,103 SO, AFTER DERRICKUS FEEDS ME, I FIND WAYS TO KEEP EATING. 115 00:06:19,103 --> 00:06:23,379 OKAY, SEANA, I GOT TO GO. DO YOU NEED ANYTHING ELSE? 116 00:06:23,379 --> 00:06:25,000 NO, I'M OKAY. 117 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:27,655 ALRIGHTY. SEE YOU LATER. 118 00:06:32,137 --> 00:06:33,827 BYE. BYE-BYE. 119 00:06:33,827 --> 00:06:35,448 BE CAREFUL. 120 00:06:39,586 --> 00:06:42,517 I'M NEVER SATISFIED WHEN IT COMES TO MY HUNGER, 121 00:06:42,517 --> 00:06:44,931 BECAUSE EATING IS SUCH A GOOD FEELING. 122 00:06:44,931 --> 00:06:48,103 AND ONCE I'M EATING, I WON'T THINK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE SAD. 123 00:06:48,103 --> 00:06:49,793 Man: How can I help? 124 00:06:49,793 --> 00:06:51,965 CAN I PLEASE HAVE 125 00:06:51,965 --> 00:06:56,413 A LARGE STUFFED-CRUST PEPPERONI PIZZA? 126 00:06:58,379 --> 00:07:00,655 THE CINNAMON-BITES THING. 127 00:07:00,655 --> 00:07:03,551 AND THAT'S ALL. THANK YOU. 128 00:07:03,551 --> 00:07:05,862 SO, I EAT AND TRY AND FORGET ABOUT MY LIFE 129 00:07:05,862 --> 00:07:07,689 AND ALL THE THINGS I'VE BEEN THROUGH. 130 00:07:12,758 --> 00:07:14,482 I'VE HAD A REALLY HARD LIFE, 131 00:07:14,482 --> 00:07:18,000 AND I FELT LIKE IT'S JUST BEEN CHAOS EVER SINCE I WAS BORN. 132 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:19,793 A LOT OF THAT IS BECAUSE OF MY DAD 133 00:07:19,793 --> 00:07:22,034 AND HOW HE TREATED ME AND MY MOM. 134 00:07:22,034 --> 00:07:23,827 HE WAS VERY VERBALLY ABUSIVE 135 00:07:23,827 --> 00:07:26,896 AND SOMETIMES PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE -- 136 00:07:26,896 --> 00:07:28,448 MOST OF THE TIME. 137 00:07:28,448 --> 00:07:30,620 A LOT OF IT WAS BECAUSE MY DAD HAD A DRUG PROBLEM, 138 00:07:30,620 --> 00:07:32,689 BUT I DIDN'T KNOW IT THEN. 139 00:07:32,689 --> 00:07:36,241 AS A KID, ALL I KNEW WAS THAT HE WAS EITHER SCREAMING AT ME, 140 00:07:36,241 --> 00:07:38,448 CALLING ME NAMES, OR HITTING ME. 141 00:07:38,448 --> 00:07:42,344 SO, I NEVER EVEN FELT WANTED BY HIM AND THAT HURT ME A LOT. 142 00:07:42,344 --> 00:07:43,793 THE RELATIONSHIP WITH SEANA'S FATHER 143 00:07:43,793 --> 00:07:45,931 WAS VERY TRAUMATIC FOR HER AS A CHILD. 144 00:07:45,931 --> 00:07:48,413 HI. 145 00:07:48,413 --> 00:07:50,206 HE WASN'T EASY TO GET ALONG WITH, 146 00:07:50,206 --> 00:07:52,103 AND I SHOULD HAVE WALKED AWAY YEARS BEFORE, 147 00:07:52,103 --> 00:07:56,413 BUT WE STAYED TOGETHER FOR A WHILE. 148 00:07:56,413 --> 00:07:58,310 Seana: MY MOM NEVER REALLY KNEW HOW BAD THINGS WERE 149 00:07:58,310 --> 00:08:00,000 BETWEEN ME AND MY DAD. 150 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,344 SHE KNEW SOME OF IT, BUT MOST OF WHAT HE DID, 151 00:08:02,344 --> 00:08:05,034 HE DID WHEN WE WERE ALONE, SO I JUST KEPT IT TO MYSELF 152 00:08:05,034 --> 00:08:06,965 BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO MAKE MY DAD ANGRY. 153 00:08:06,965 --> 00:08:10,172 INSTEAD, WHEN MY FATHER DID THINGS THAT HURT ME, 154 00:08:10,172 --> 00:08:13,241 I WOULD TURN TO FOOD. 155 00:08:13,241 --> 00:08:15,724 IT WAS ALL I COULD REALLY DO AND ALL I HAD POWER OVER. 156 00:08:15,724 --> 00:08:19,931 EATING MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS GONNA BE OKAY 157 00:08:19,931 --> 00:08:22,206 AND THAT NOTHING WAS WRONG. 158 00:08:26,275 --> 00:08:27,793 SO, I NEVER WANTED TO STOP EATING 159 00:08:27,793 --> 00:08:29,620 AND GETTING THAT FEELING. 160 00:08:29,620 --> 00:08:32,655 AND BY THE TIME WHEN I WAS 8, I WAS ALREADY OVER 150 POUNDS. 161 00:08:32,655 --> 00:08:37,379 BUT EVENTUALLY MY MOM DECIDED TO LEAVE MY DAD AFTER A BIG FIGHT. 162 00:08:37,379 --> 00:08:39,448 Cricket: THE LAST STRAW WAS SEANA FELL ASLEEP 163 00:08:39,448 --> 00:08:41,344 IN THE BACK SEAT OF THE CAR, AND HE DECIDED 164 00:08:41,344 --> 00:08:45,000 HE WAS GONNA PUT A CIGARETTE OUT IN THE GAS TANK. 165 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:47,448 SO WE GOT INTO A FISTFIGHT OUT IN THE YARD. 166 00:08:47,448 --> 00:08:51,344 AND THAT WAS WHEN I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO GO. 167 00:08:51,344 --> 00:08:53,862 I MEAN, I COULD PUT UP WITH ALL THE JUNK 168 00:08:53,862 --> 00:08:55,517 HE WANTED ME TO PUT UP WITH MYSELF, 169 00:08:55,517 --> 00:08:56,827 BUT WHEN IT COMES TO SEANA, 170 00:08:56,827 --> 00:09:00,724 I WASN'T GOING TO LET HIM TRY TO KILL HER. 171 00:09:00,724 --> 00:09:02,517 THAT'S WHEN I PACKED UP EVERYTHING 172 00:09:02,517 --> 00:09:04,379 AND MOVED TO KANSAS CITY. 173 00:09:06,379 --> 00:09:08,034 Seana: MOVING TO KANSAS CITY TO A WHOLE NEW SCHOOL 174 00:09:08,034 --> 00:09:09,931 AND PEOPLE I DIDN'T KNOW, IT WAS HARD, 175 00:09:09,931 --> 00:09:12,310 BUT I WAS GLAD TO BE AWAY FROM MY FATHER. 176 00:09:12,310 --> 00:09:14,068 HE WASN'T COMPLETELY OUT OF MY LIFE 177 00:09:14,068 --> 00:09:15,379 BECAUSE WHEN MY PARENTS SEPARATED, 178 00:09:15,379 --> 00:09:16,724 HE GOT SUMMERS WITH ME. 179 00:09:16,724 --> 00:09:19,137 I'M NOT EVEN SURE WHY HE WANTED SUMMERS WITH ME 180 00:09:19,137 --> 00:09:22,000 BECAUSE HE'D TELL ME HE DIDN'T EVEN WANT ME AROUND 181 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,068 AND THE ABUSE GOT WORSE. 182 00:09:24,068 --> 00:09:25,896 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME AFTER THE SUMMER, 183 00:09:25,896 --> 00:09:27,551 I WOULD HAVE LOTS OF BRUISES FROM MY DAD HITTING ME. 184 00:09:27,551 --> 00:09:30,724 I WOULD JUST SAY, "I FELL OFF A BIKE," OR SOMETHING. 185 00:09:30,724 --> 00:09:33,310 I NEVER TOLD MY MOM BECAUSE I WAS SCARED 186 00:09:33,310 --> 00:09:35,862 THAT IF I TOLD HER, HE'D DO SOMETHING TO ME AND HER. 187 00:09:41,103 --> 00:09:42,517 SO I NEVER WENT TO HER, 188 00:09:42,517 --> 00:09:44,586 AND SHE DIDN'T KNOW ALL THE ABUSE WAS HAPPENING TO ME. 189 00:09:44,586 --> 00:09:46,827 BUT AS LONG AS I HAD FOOD, IT WAS OKAY. 190 00:09:46,827 --> 00:09:48,862 SO I WAS PUTTING ON MORE WEIGHT, 191 00:09:48,862 --> 00:09:52,034 AND I GOT UP PAST 200 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 10, 192 00:09:52,034 --> 00:09:54,344 BUT BEING THAT SIZE MADE IT HARDER AT SCHOOL 193 00:09:54,344 --> 00:09:56,241 BECAUSE THE KIDS STARTED MAKING FUN OF ME A LOT 194 00:09:56,241 --> 00:09:57,793 FOR HOW BIG I WAS. 195 00:09:57,793 --> 00:09:59,862 SO I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS, 196 00:09:59,862 --> 00:10:01,448 AND I FELT REALLY ISOLATED. 197 00:10:01,448 --> 00:10:04,689 NO ONE REALLY LIKED ME. 198 00:10:04,689 --> 00:10:07,379 MY PERSPECTIVE WAS THAT I HAD FOOD AS MY FRIEND, 199 00:10:07,379 --> 00:10:10,000 SO I DIDN'T NEED ANYONE OR ANYTHING ELSE. 200 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:14,241 MY WEIGHT GAIN CONTINUED AND GOT EVEN WORSE WHEN I WAS TEENAGER. 201 00:10:14,241 --> 00:10:15,620 BY THE TIME I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL, 202 00:10:15,620 --> 00:10:18,034 I WAS ALREADY AROUND 400 POUNDS. 203 00:10:18,034 --> 00:10:22,275 I'D JUST NONSTOP ATE. I DIDN'T CARE. 204 00:10:22,275 --> 00:10:24,172 IF I SAW IT AND I WANTED, I ATE IT. 205 00:10:26,206 --> 00:10:29,103 BUT IT WAS GETTING TOO HARD FOR ME TO GET AROUND 206 00:10:29,103 --> 00:10:31,034 AND THE KIDS MAKING FUN OF ME GOT SO BAD, 207 00:10:31,034 --> 00:10:33,034 I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. 208 00:10:33,034 --> 00:10:35,862 I DROPPED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16, 209 00:10:35,862 --> 00:10:37,172 BUT BEING OUT OF SCHOOL, 210 00:10:37,172 --> 00:10:38,965 I JUST GOT WORSE AND SO DEPRESSED 211 00:10:38,965 --> 00:10:40,724 THAT I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. 212 00:10:40,724 --> 00:10:45,379 MY MOM HAD TO TAKE ME TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL. 213 00:10:45,379 --> 00:10:47,965 WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL, I HAD TO TELL THE DOCTORS 214 00:10:47,965 --> 00:10:49,620 WHY I WAS DEPRESSED, 215 00:10:49,620 --> 00:10:52,827 AND I TOLD MY MOM ABOUT MY DAD AND HIS ABUSE 216 00:10:52,827 --> 00:10:54,827 AND SHE KIND OF ALMOST LOST IT. 217 00:10:57,034 --> 00:10:59,827 I HAD THOUGHT THAT ONCE WE LEFT, HE WASN'T GONNA DO IT AGAIN 218 00:10:59,827 --> 00:11:02,448 BECAUSE HE WOULD SEE THAT THIS IS HIS ONLY OPPORTUNITY TO VISIT 219 00:11:02,448 --> 00:11:04,172 WITH HIS DAUGHTER DURING THE SUMMERS, 220 00:11:04,172 --> 00:11:06,517 SO HE WOULDN'T ACT THAT WAY. 221 00:11:06,517 --> 00:11:09,413 APPARENTLY HE CONTINUED, AND SHE FINALLY BROKE DOWN 222 00:11:09,413 --> 00:11:12,482 AND TOLD ME ABOUT IT WHEN SHE WAS 16. 223 00:11:12,482 --> 00:11:15,137 Seana: IT BROKE MY HEART, SEEING MY MOM THAT UPSET. 224 00:11:15,137 --> 00:11:17,275 IT WAS JUST AWFUL. 225 00:11:17,275 --> 00:11:19,068 I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND I JUST WANTED TO EAT, 226 00:11:19,068 --> 00:11:21,482 BUT I COULDN'T WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. 227 00:11:21,482 --> 00:11:23,379 I DIDN'T GAIN MUCH FOR A BIT. 228 00:11:23,379 --> 00:11:25,827 WHEN I GOT OUT, I GOT A COUNSELOR, 229 00:11:25,827 --> 00:11:30,758 AND SHE TAUGHT ME A LOT ABOUT HOW FOOD IS MY COPE, 230 00:11:30,758 --> 00:11:32,896 BUT IT'S ALSO MY ENEMY, TOO, 231 00:11:32,896 --> 00:11:38,034 AND THAT I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO EAT SAFELY. 232 00:11:38,034 --> 00:11:39,068 BUT EVEN THOUGH I WAS GETTING COUNSELING, 233 00:11:39,068 --> 00:11:40,724 IT STILL DIDN'T STOP ME FROM EATING. 234 00:11:40,724 --> 00:11:46,172 BY THE AGE OF 18, I WEIGHED AROUND 500 POUNDS. 235 00:11:46,172 --> 00:11:50,137 THERE WERE DAYS WHEN ALL I DID WAS SIT AT HOME AND EAT NONSTOP. 236 00:11:50,137 --> 00:11:52,965 MY MOM WASN'T HAPPY ABOUT THAT BECAUSE SHE WANTED ME TO WORK 237 00:11:52,965 --> 00:11:54,724 ON GETTING BETTER WITH MY COUNSELOR, 238 00:11:54,724 --> 00:11:57,413 BUT I DIDN'T CARE BECAUSE IT WAS WHAT I WANTED TO DO. 239 00:11:57,413 --> 00:12:00,137 WHEN I TURNED 19, MY DISABILITY KICKED IN, 240 00:12:00,137 --> 00:12:05,103 AND I GOT MY APARTMENT AND A DOG AND A CAR. 241 00:12:05,103 --> 00:12:07,379 I MOVED A FEW CITIES AWAY TO FALL CITY 242 00:12:07,379 --> 00:12:09,034 SO I COULD DO WHAT I WANTED WITHOUT ANYONE 243 00:12:09,034 --> 00:12:12,517 I KNEW BOTHERING ME. WHAT I WANTED TO DO WAS EAT. 244 00:12:12,517 --> 00:12:14,758 SO I KEPT EATING, AND THAT'S MOSTLY WHAT I DID 245 00:12:14,758 --> 00:12:17,172 FOR THE NEXT YEAR OF MY LIFE. 246 00:12:17,172 --> 00:12:18,689 WHEN I WAS 20, I MET SOMEONE ONLINE 247 00:12:18,689 --> 00:12:22,103 AND TOLD HIM HE CAN MOVE IN WITH ME AND THAT DIDN'T GO WELL. 248 00:12:22,103 --> 00:12:25,827 IT WAS OKAY AT FIRST, AND THEN I FOUND OUT HE WAS A DOPEHEAD. 249 00:12:28,034 --> 00:12:29,793 HE WAS ADDICTED TO METH AND THAT LED TO ME 250 00:12:29,793 --> 00:12:31,689 GETTING ADDICTED TO METH, TOO. 251 00:12:31,689 --> 00:12:34,413 IT JUST GOT WORSE BECAUSE HE STARTED ABUSING ME, 252 00:12:34,413 --> 00:12:37,551 PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY. 253 00:12:37,551 --> 00:12:38,827 IT'S PRETTY MUCH THE TYPE OF LOVE 254 00:12:38,827 --> 00:12:42,413 I WAS USED TO, SO I JUST TOOK IT. 255 00:12:43,689 --> 00:12:45,862 THINGS GOT REALLY BAD AND I JUST SHUT OFF 256 00:12:45,862 --> 00:12:50,827 AND WAS IN THIS DOWNWARD SPIRAL UNTIL MY MOM CAME AND GOT ME. 257 00:12:50,827 --> 00:12:53,448 AFTER ABOUT A MONTH OF ME NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTACT HER 258 00:12:53,448 --> 00:12:55,482 CONSISTENTLY WITHOUT HIM INTERFERING, 259 00:12:55,482 --> 00:12:59,448 I FINALLY WENT UP THERE. 260 00:12:59,448 --> 00:13:02,034 AND I TOLD HER -- PACKED HER UP, 261 00:13:02,034 --> 00:13:06,482 AND I SAID, "GET EVERYTHING YOU NEED DOWN TO KANSAS CITY. 262 00:13:06,482 --> 00:13:07,896 I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU DO WITH HIM. 263 00:13:07,896 --> 00:13:09,275 DUMP HIM OFF IN A DITCH SOMEWHERE 264 00:13:09,275 --> 00:13:12,586 AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED." 265 00:13:12,586 --> 00:13:14,551 Seana: I TOLD HIM WE WERE BREAKING UP, 266 00:13:14,551 --> 00:13:17,068 AND I WAS LEAVING AND GOING BACK TO BE WITH MY MOM, 267 00:13:17,068 --> 00:13:18,758 AND HE RESPONDED 268 00:13:18,758 --> 00:13:22,034 BY STEALING THE VAN WITH ALL OF MY STUFF IN IT -- 269 00:13:22,034 --> 00:13:25,000 MY I.D., MY WALLET, CLOTHES -- 270 00:13:25,000 --> 00:13:26,931 AND I HAD NOTHING. 271 00:13:26,931 --> 00:13:28,379 I WAS ADDICTED TO METH, 272 00:13:28,379 --> 00:13:31,344 AND I COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I MESSED UP MY LIFE. 273 00:13:31,344 --> 00:13:33,344 SO RIGHT AFTER, I WENT BACK TO MY MOM'S, 274 00:13:33,344 --> 00:13:35,758 AND I TRIED TO TAKE A BUNCH OF PILLS. 275 00:13:35,758 --> 00:13:37,206 AND MY MOM STOPPED ME. 276 00:13:39,620 --> 00:13:42,241 SHE MADE ME PUKE THEM OUT AND TOLD ME, 277 00:13:42,241 --> 00:13:45,206 "EITHER YOU GO TO THE HOSPITAL VOLUNTARILY 278 00:13:45,206 --> 00:13:48,724 OR I'M CALLING THE POLICE." 279 00:13:48,724 --> 00:13:50,931 SO I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL VOLUNTARILY. 280 00:13:50,931 --> 00:13:54,103 I GOT MYSELF TOGETHER AGAIN AND WENT BACK TO LIVE WITH MY MOM. 281 00:13:54,103 --> 00:13:57,068 IT FELT LIKE WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL THE FIRST TIME, 282 00:13:57,068 --> 00:14:00,793 BECAUSE I WAS JUST EATING A LOT AGAIN TO COPE WITH THINGS 283 00:14:00,793 --> 00:14:03,689 AND GAINING AND GETTING BIGGER. 284 00:14:03,689 --> 00:14:06,448 AND THAT'S PRETTY MUCH MY LIFE NOW, 285 00:14:06,448 --> 00:14:08,586 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I LET IT GET LIKE THIS. 286 00:14:11,413 --> 00:14:13,517 HELLO. HI. 287 00:14:13,517 --> 00:14:14,931 HOW ARE YOU DOING? 288 00:14:14,931 --> 00:14:18,172 IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU. 289 00:14:18,172 --> 00:14:19,310 I KNOW. I MISS YOU. 290 00:14:19,310 --> 00:14:20,379 AW. 291 00:14:20,379 --> 00:14:23,103 I MISS YOU SO MUCH. 292 00:14:25,931 --> 00:14:27,034 YOU GOOD? 293 00:14:27,034 --> 00:14:28,862 GOOD. WHAT'S NEW? 294 00:14:28,862 --> 00:14:31,275 NOTHING. HOW ARE YOU? 295 00:14:31,275 --> 00:14:33,241 I'M FINE. TOUR WAS EXHAUSTING. 296 00:14:33,241 --> 00:14:34,896 IT WAS? YEAH. 297 00:14:34,896 --> 00:14:38,034 WELL, COULD YOU COOK ME A MEAL? 298 00:14:38,034 --> 00:14:39,172 MM. I GUESS. 299 00:14:39,172 --> 00:14:41,310 I THINK SEANA'S KILLING HERSELF SLOWLY 300 00:14:41,310 --> 00:14:45,068 BY EATING AS MUCH AS SHE DOES EVERY DAY. 301 00:14:45,068 --> 00:14:48,793 IF SEANA DOESN'T STOP, THEN SHE'S PROBABLY GONNA DIE 302 00:14:48,793 --> 00:14:51,793 SO THERE'S NOT GONNA BE VERY MUCH LONGER. 303 00:14:51,793 --> 00:14:54,517 I DON'T THINK SHE'S GONNA LAST ANOTHER TWO YEARS. 304 00:14:54,517 --> 00:14:57,275 I ALWAYS DREAD THAT PHONE CALL. 305 00:14:57,275 --> 00:14:59,137 I THINK SOMEDAY SOMEBODY'S GONNA CALL ME 306 00:14:59,137 --> 00:15:01,827 AND SAY THAT THEY WOKE UP AND FOUND HER DEAD. 307 00:15:01,827 --> 00:15:03,862 I STRESS ABOUT THAT A LOT. 308 00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:06,172 IF SEANA DIED, IT WOULD BE THE END OF THE WORLD FOR ME. 309 00:15:06,172 --> 00:15:08,000 I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITH MYSELF 310 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:10,758 AND HOW I WOULD HANDLE LIFE WITHOUT HER IN MY WORLD. 311 00:15:14,482 --> 00:15:16,862 Seana: I KNOW I'M GIVING UP MY WHOLE LIFE FOR FOOD. 312 00:15:16,862 --> 00:15:21,137 I DON'T EVEN FEEL LIKE I HAVE A HUMAN BODY ANYMORE. 313 00:15:21,137 --> 00:15:23,068 I WOULD LOVE TO FEEL LIKE A HUMAN AGAIN, 314 00:15:23,068 --> 00:15:27,862 BUT I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER GET THAT IF I DON'T CHANGE MY BODY. 315 00:15:27,862 --> 00:15:29,275 IT'S ALREADY MADE ME A PRISONER 316 00:15:29,275 --> 00:15:31,068 WHERE I'M MISSING OUT ON EVERYTHING. 317 00:15:33,448 --> 00:15:35,034 THAT LOOKS AWESOME. 318 00:15:38,758 --> 00:15:40,827 IT'S TIME TO EAT. 319 00:15:42,862 --> 00:15:46,034 HERE YOU GO -- YOUR FAVORITES. 320 00:15:46,034 --> 00:15:49,448 OH, HOLY ME. 321 00:15:49,448 --> 00:15:50,517 OKAY. 322 00:15:52,862 --> 00:15:56,793 THE LIFE I WANT IS NOWHERE NEAR THIS. 323 00:15:56,793 --> 00:16:00,172 MY FOOD ADDICTION IS KILLING ME AND IT'S REALLY SCARY 324 00:16:00,172 --> 00:16:03,000 BECAUSE I'M AFRAID TO GO TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF IT. 325 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:05,965 I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL 22-YEAR-OLD, 326 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:10,103 AND IT SUCKS BECAUSE I CAN'T BECAUSE OF THIS STUPID BODY. 327 00:16:12,241 --> 00:16:15,551 EVERYTHING'S GETTING HARDER AND WORSE EVERY DAY. 328 00:16:15,551 --> 00:16:17,689 I CAN'T KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS. 329 00:16:17,689 --> 00:16:20,827 EVERYTHING HAS TO CHANGE. EVERYTHING. 330 00:16:20,827 --> 00:16:22,896 I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME TO DO THAT. 331 00:16:22,896 --> 00:16:24,896 MY MOM KEEPS REMINDING ME OF THAT 332 00:16:24,896 --> 00:16:26,275 AND TELLING ME I NEED TO GO TO HOUSTON 333 00:16:26,275 --> 00:16:28,689 TO SEE DR. NOW AND TRY TO GET HELP. 334 00:16:28,689 --> 00:16:32,379 I KNOW SHE'S RIGHT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE A TICKING TIME BOMB. 335 00:16:32,379 --> 00:16:35,206 IF I THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH AND WHAT COULD HAPPEN SOON, 336 00:16:35,206 --> 00:16:36,793 IT TERRIFIES ME. 337 00:16:57,241 --> 00:17:00,724 Seana: MY MOM CONVINCED ME TO GO TO HOUSTON AND SEE DR. NOW. 338 00:17:00,724 --> 00:17:04,758 I TOLD HER I'D GO IF SHE'D TAKE ME AND SHE SAID SHE WOULD. 339 00:17:04,758 --> 00:17:07,310 I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING THIS TIME WITH HER. 340 00:17:07,310 --> 00:17:08,931 IT'S SOMETHING I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO 341 00:17:08,931 --> 00:17:12,482 EVER SINCE SHE GOT HER JOB AS A TOUR-BUS DRIVER, 342 00:17:12,482 --> 00:17:15,137 BUT I KNOW THIS TRIP ISN'T GONNA BE EASY, 343 00:17:15,137 --> 00:17:17,172 BUT I KNOW THIS IS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO DO. 344 00:17:17,172 --> 00:17:19,758 NOT JUST FOR MY MOM, BUT FOR ME, 345 00:17:19,758 --> 00:17:22,206 BUT I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. 346 00:17:22,206 --> 00:17:24,896 I'M HOPING DR. NOW CAN HELP ME DO THAT 347 00:17:24,896 --> 00:17:28,241 BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE HAS BEEN WILLING TO HELP ME. 348 00:17:28,241 --> 00:17:30,448 AS SOON AS MY MOM GETS HERE TO PICK ME UP, 349 00:17:30,448 --> 00:17:32,931 WE'RE GONNA GO TO HOUSTON. 350 00:17:32,931 --> 00:17:35,206 IT'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG CAR RIDE. 351 00:17:35,206 --> 00:17:37,103 LIKE 11 OR 12 HOURS, MY MOM SAID. 352 00:17:37,103 --> 00:17:41,000 I'M SCARED TO BE IN THE CAR FOR AS LONG AS THAT. 353 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:42,724 THAT AND BEING ABLE TO EAT ENOUGH 354 00:17:42,724 --> 00:17:45,034 IS THE ONLY THING THAT'S SCARING ME. 355 00:17:45,034 --> 00:17:46,586 THIS IS JUST GOING TO BE A HARD TRIP, 356 00:17:46,586 --> 00:17:49,034 BUT I'LL AT LEAST HAVE MY MOM WITH ME TO HELP. 357 00:17:49,034 --> 00:17:51,551 SHE WENT TO RENT A CAR THAT WAS BIG ENOUGH FOR ME. 358 00:17:51,551 --> 00:17:52,758 I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT 359 00:17:52,758 --> 00:17:55,034 AND THEN WE'RE GONNA GET SOME TIME TOGETHER. 360 00:17:58,862 --> 00:18:00,551 HEY. 361 00:18:00,551 --> 00:18:03,034 I GOT YOUR FOOD. 362 00:18:03,034 --> 00:18:05,758 THANK YOU. 363 00:18:05,758 --> 00:18:06,724 I THINK WE'LL EAT ON THE ROAD, THOUGH, 364 00:18:06,724 --> 00:18:08,034 BECAUSE WE WERE ALREADY LATE. 365 00:18:08,034 --> 00:18:10,965 OH, MY GOSH, OKAY. WELL, I GOT THE TRUCK, 366 00:18:10,965 --> 00:18:13,034 BUT I DON'T KNOW 367 00:18:13,034 --> 00:18:15,241 IF YOU'RE STILL GONNA BE ABLE TO GET INTO IT. 368 00:18:15,241 --> 00:18:16,413 WE JUST NEED TO HURRY, THOUGH. 369 00:18:16,413 --> 00:18:18,068 BUT, YEAH, LET'S GO. 370 00:18:21,137 --> 00:18:22,551 YOU COMING? 371 00:18:22,551 --> 00:18:24,379 I'M COMING, I'M COMING. 372 00:18:24,379 --> 00:18:26,206 NOW, GET ME HELP. 373 00:18:26,206 --> 00:18:28,068 GIVE ME A SECOND. 374 00:18:28,068 --> 00:18:30,241 I HOPE I CAN FIT BECAUSE MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW 375 00:18:30,241 --> 00:18:31,827 IS TOMORROW. 376 00:18:34,448 --> 00:18:36,103 IF THIS TRUCK ISN'T BIG ENOUGH, 377 00:18:36,103 --> 00:18:38,310 I'M NOT SURE WHAT MY OPTIONS ARE GONNA BE 378 00:18:38,310 --> 00:18:39,827 TO GET TO HOUSTON AND DO THIS. 379 00:19:04,551 --> 00:19:05,758 YEAH, WE'RE GOOD. 380 00:19:05,758 --> 00:19:06,758 YOU GOOD? YEAH. 381 00:19:06,758 --> 00:19:07,965 I'LL SHUT THE DOOR. 382 00:19:28,862 --> 00:19:31,862 AS LONG AS I HAVE FOOD, I THINK I CAN MAKE THIS TRIP. 383 00:19:31,862 --> 00:19:33,482 BUT I JUST HOPE THE FAST-FOOD PLACES 384 00:19:33,482 --> 00:19:37,000 AREN'T TOO FAR APART ON THE ROAD BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY THING 385 00:19:37,000 --> 00:19:39,517 THAT'S GONNA MAKE THIS DRIVE TOO MUCH FOR ME, 386 00:19:39,517 --> 00:19:42,379 BUT AS LONG AS I HAVE SOME GOOD FOOD LIKE THIS, 387 00:19:42,379 --> 00:19:44,551 I'LL BE ALRIGHT AND I KNOW I CAN MAKE IT. 388 00:19:53,103 --> 00:19:55,275 WE'VE ALMOST MADE IT HALFWAY TO HOUSTON, 389 00:19:55,275 --> 00:19:56,931 AND I TOLD MY MOM I'M STARVING, 390 00:19:56,931 --> 00:20:03,206 SO WE GOT SOME MORE FAST FOOD AND WE'RE STOPPING OFF. 391 00:20:03,206 --> 00:20:06,137 I'M REALLY SORE, BUT I'VE BEEN HOLDING IT TOGETHER. 392 00:20:06,137 --> 00:20:08,000 AND ONCE I EAT AND REST TONIGHT, 393 00:20:08,000 --> 00:20:11,620 I THINK I'LL BE READY TO DO THIS AGAIN TOMORROW. 394 00:20:11,620 --> 00:20:13,965 BUT I KNOW TOMORROW WE HAVE TO START REALLY EARLY 395 00:20:13,965 --> 00:20:17,206 AND WE HAVE TO GO EVEN LONGER THAN TODAY. 396 00:20:17,206 --> 00:20:18,448 I'LL BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT AS LONG 397 00:20:18,448 --> 00:20:20,862 AS WE HAVE PLACES TO STOP TO GET SOMETHING. 398 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,517 I CANNOT WAIT TO GET INTO THE ROOM. 399 00:20:26,517 --> 00:20:27,689 I KNOW, RIGHT? 400 00:20:27,689 --> 00:20:29,344 I AM SO WIPED OUT. 401 00:20:29,344 --> 00:20:31,172 SERIOUSLY, I'M DYING. 402 00:20:44,448 --> 00:20:46,655 FOOD ALWAYS GETS ME THROUGH ANYTHING. 403 00:20:46,655 --> 00:20:50,448 THAT'S THE REASON I CAN'T STOP EATING. 404 00:20:50,448 --> 00:20:53,793 I'M NOT SURE HOW DR. NOW IS GONNA HELP ME DO THAT. 405 00:20:53,793 --> 00:20:57,517 I JUST NEED HIS HELP AND I'M HOPING I CAN GET IT TOMORROW. 406 00:20:57,517 --> 00:21:00,103 IT'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG DAY TOMORROW, 407 00:21:00,103 --> 00:21:02,241 BUT IF I GET WHAT I NEED TO HAVE A NEW LIFE, 408 00:21:02,241 --> 00:21:04,275 THEN IT'LL ALL BE WORTH IT. 409 00:21:04,275 --> 00:21:06,344 WE'LL JUST HAVE TO SEE HOW IT GOES TOMORROW, 410 00:21:06,344 --> 00:21:09,034 BECAUSE WE WON'T KNOW UNTIL I GET THERE AND I SEE HIM. 411 00:21:19,793 --> 00:21:23,000 HOW ARE YOU FEELING, LIKE, PHYSICALLY? 412 00:21:23,000 --> 00:21:26,000 MY LEG IS KILLING ME, AND MY BACK IS KILLING ME. 413 00:21:26,000 --> 00:21:28,413 JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND GO TO SLEEP. 414 00:21:28,413 --> 00:21:29,793 YOU DO? 415 00:21:29,793 --> 00:21:32,551 BUT I'M STILL HUNGRY. 416 00:21:44,241 --> 00:21:47,551 WE'VE BEEN BACK ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT FIVE AND A HALF HOURS, 417 00:21:47,551 --> 00:21:50,344 SO WE'RE CLOSE TO HOUSTON AND DR. NOW, 418 00:21:50,344 --> 00:21:52,103 BUT THIS DAY OF TRAVELING 419 00:21:52,103 --> 00:21:54,620 HAS BEEN A LOT HARDER THAN YESTERDAY 420 00:21:54,620 --> 00:21:56,689 AND I'M IN MORE PAIN, 421 00:21:56,689 --> 00:21:59,103 BUT MY MOM'S BEEN HELPING ME STAY DISTRACTED 422 00:21:59,103 --> 00:22:03,689 BY GETTING ME SOME GOOD STUFF TO EAT MOST OF THE DAY. 423 00:22:03,689 --> 00:22:05,172 FOOD IS PRETTY MUCH THE ONLY THING 424 00:22:05,172 --> 00:22:07,482 KEEPING ME GOING RIGHT NOW. 425 00:22:07,482 --> 00:22:10,344 I'M REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING DR. NOW. 426 00:22:10,344 --> 00:22:12,310 MY BIGGEST FEAR IS THAT HE TELLS ME MY BODY 427 00:22:12,310 --> 00:22:15,517 TOO MESSED UP FROM MY WEIGHT, SO IT'S TOO LATE TO GET HELP, 428 00:22:15,517 --> 00:22:17,793 THAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE IT SOONER. 429 00:22:30,310 --> 00:22:31,620 I'M HOPING HE AT LEAST THINKS 430 00:22:31,620 --> 00:22:33,379 I HAVE A CHANCE TO DO THIS PROGRAM. 431 00:22:33,379 --> 00:22:35,103 I'M TRYING TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER. 432 00:22:37,551 --> 00:22:39,344 YOU MADE IT. YOU OKAY? 433 00:22:39,344 --> 00:22:40,413 MM. 434 00:22:43,896 --> 00:22:47,000 SEANA? 435 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:49,172 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY, 436 00:22:49,172 --> 00:22:52,931 SO I'M JUST REALLY AFRAID RIGHT NOW OF WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. 437 00:22:52,931 --> 00:22:56,137 I JUST HOPE IT'S GOOD, AND I GET A CHANCE 438 00:22:56,137 --> 00:22:58,379 BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WEIGH ANYMORE. 439 00:23:15,896 --> 00:23:19,172 Seana: I'M AT DR. NOW'S TO SEE IF HE'LL LET ME DO HIS PROGRAM, 440 00:23:19,172 --> 00:23:21,862 BUT I HAVE TO GET MY WEIGH-IN FIRST. 441 00:23:21,862 --> 00:23:24,517 I'M NERVOUS ABOUT WHAT IT'S GONNA BE. 442 00:23:24,517 --> 00:23:27,103 I'M HOPING THAT IT'S NOT MUCH HIGHER THAN 600, 443 00:23:27,103 --> 00:23:28,655 BUT I'M NOT SURE, REALLY, 444 00:23:28,655 --> 00:23:30,965 AND I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO FIND OUT. 445 00:23:30,965 --> 00:23:32,793 I JUST HOPE IT'S NOT BAD. 446 00:23:35,068 --> 00:23:36,689 Woman 447 00:23:41,241 --> 00:23:42,862 WOW. OH, MY GOD. 448 00:23:46,310 --> 00:23:48,379 I'M EMBARRASSED ABOUT MY WEIGHT 449 00:23:48,379 --> 00:23:51,379 AND THAT MY MOM WAS HERE TO SEE IT, TOO. 450 00:23:51,379 --> 00:23:55,310 KNOWING IT'S THAT HIGH MAKES YOU FEEL A LOT OF GUILT AND SHAME. 451 00:23:55,310 --> 00:23:59,862 I WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING TO CHANGE AND TO LOSE WEIGHT. 452 00:23:59,862 --> 00:24:00,965 I JUST NEED HELP TO DO IT 453 00:24:00,965 --> 00:24:04,655 BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T ON MY OWN. 454 00:24:04,655 --> 00:24:08,000 THAT'S UNBELIEVABLE. 455 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,551 I KNOW. 456 00:24:15,413 --> 00:24:16,413 HELLO. HI. 457 00:24:16,413 --> 00:24:18,551 HI. HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 458 00:24:18,551 --> 00:24:19,758 HOW ARE YOU? 459 00:24:19,758 --> 00:24:21,827 I'M DOING GOOD. I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 460 00:24:21,827 --> 00:24:23,827 I'M SEANA.NICE TO MEET YOU, SEANA. 461 00:24:23,827 --> 00:24:25,379 CRICKET. AND YOU'RE... 462 00:24:25,379 --> 00:24:26,586 MOM. 463 00:24:26,586 --> 00:24:29,034 MOM, OKAY. WHERE ARE Y'ALL COMING FROM? 464 00:24:29,034 --> 00:24:30,862 MISSOURI. KANSAS CITY. 465 00:24:30,862 --> 00:24:33,413 KANSAS CITY. THAT'S A BIT OF A DRIVE. 466 00:24:33,413 --> 00:24:35,965 YOU FEELING OKAY?YES, SIR. 467 00:24:35,965 --> 00:24:38,551 OKAY, GOOD. ALRIGHT. 468 00:24:38,551 --> 00:24:42,103 SEANA, IT LOOKED LIKE YOU'RE AT 659 TODAY, HUH? 469 00:24:42,103 --> 00:24:43,000 YEAH. 470 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:46,000 AND YOU'RE ONLY 22, HUH? 471 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:47,275 YES, SIR. 472 00:24:47,275 --> 00:24:48,310 YEAH, ALRIGHT. 473 00:24:48,310 --> 00:24:50,862 SO TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF. 474 00:24:50,862 --> 00:24:52,793 HAVE YOU BEEN HEAVY ALL YOUR LIFE? 475 00:24:52,793 --> 00:24:54,310 YES, SIR. 476 00:24:54,310 --> 00:24:56,379 ALRIGHT. HAVE YOU TRIED TO LOSE WEIGHT 477 00:24:56,379 --> 00:24:58,275 AT ANY POINT IN YOUR LIFE? 478 00:24:58,275 --> 00:25:02,827 YEAH, BUT I JUST DON'T STAY ON THE DIETS USUALLY, HONESTLY. 479 00:25:02,827 --> 00:25:04,000 WHY? 480 00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:07,724 I EAT TOO MUCH OR I EAT TOO LITTLE. 481 00:25:07,724 --> 00:25:10,172 I DON'T THINK EATING TOO LITTLE IS THE PROBLEM. 482 00:25:10,172 --> 00:25:12,172 WHEN YOU OVEREAT, DO YOU DO THAT 483 00:25:12,172 --> 00:25:16,275 BECAUSE YOU'RE HUNGRY OR YOU'RE STRESSED OR WHAT? 484 00:25:16,275 --> 00:25:17,551 USUALLY EITHER HUNGRY 485 00:25:17,551 --> 00:25:21,793 OR I'M JUST BORED OR DEPRESSED OR SOMETHING. 486 00:25:21,793 --> 00:25:24,275 OKAY, SO YOU USE FOOD TO COPE. 487 00:25:24,275 --> 00:25:26,586 SO SEANA, YOU NEED TO LEARN 488 00:25:26,586 --> 00:25:29,241 HOW YOU'RE GONNA CORRECT YOUR EATING HABIT, RIGHT? 489 00:25:29,241 --> 00:25:30,724 YES, SIR. 490 00:25:30,724 --> 00:25:34,034 ALRIGHT. WE'RE GONNA START WITH A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY, 491 00:25:34,034 --> 00:25:35,724 HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET. 492 00:25:35,724 --> 00:25:36,862 I'LL GIVE YOU A PACKET 493 00:25:36,862 --> 00:25:38,517 THAT BREAKS THE WHOLE DIET DOWN. 494 00:25:38,517 --> 00:25:40,172 THAT WAY YOU'LL EAT ONLY THREE TIMES A DAY. 495 00:25:40,172 --> 00:25:42,965 NO SNACKING. YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 496 00:25:42,965 --> 00:25:44,206 YES, SIR. 497 00:25:44,206 --> 00:25:46,862 ALRIGHT, SO I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU A GOAL. 498 00:25:46,862 --> 00:25:49,137 AT YOUR WEIGHT, IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET, 499 00:25:49,137 --> 00:25:51,275 YOU SHOULD VERY EASILY LOSE AT LEAST 500 00:25:51,275 --> 00:25:53,586 80 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT 2 MONTHS. 501 00:25:53,586 --> 00:25:54,689 80 POUNDS? 502 00:25:54,689 --> 00:25:56,758 YEAH. YOU CAN LOSE ALMOST TWICE THAT 503 00:25:56,758 --> 00:26:00,103 IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET LIKE YOU SHOULD, OKAY? 504 00:26:00,103 --> 00:26:01,379 IF YOU DO THAT, 505 00:26:01,379 --> 00:26:04,620 THEN WE'LL CONSIDER YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 506 00:26:04,620 --> 00:26:05,827 MM-HMM. 507 00:26:05,827 --> 00:26:08,551 BUT FOR THAT YOU HAVE TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON. 508 00:26:08,551 --> 00:26:10,000 YES, SIR. OKAY? 509 00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:12,689 AND YOU NEED SOMEONE HERE WITH YOU TO SUPPORT YOU 510 00:26:12,689 --> 00:26:14,241 AND HELP YOU.YES, SIR. 511 00:26:14,241 --> 00:26:17,413 OKAY, SO IF YOU MOVE TO HOUSTON, 512 00:26:17,413 --> 00:26:21,655 WHO'S GONNA BE COMING WITH YOU TO SUPPORT YOU? 513 00:26:21,655 --> 00:26:23,275 NO ONE. 514 00:26:23,275 --> 00:26:25,517 NO ONE WOULD BE HERE WITH YOU? 515 00:26:25,517 --> 00:26:27,655 WHEN YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS, 516 00:26:27,655 --> 00:26:29,655 YOU CANNOT DO EVERYTHING FOR YOURSELF, 517 00:26:29,655 --> 00:26:32,206 SO IT'S DANGEROUS TO LIVE ALONE, RIGHT? 518 00:26:32,206 --> 00:26:35,241 YEAH, BUT I DON'T HAVE ANYBODY. 519 00:26:35,241 --> 00:26:37,448 ALRIGHT, SO YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THAT, 520 00:26:37,448 --> 00:26:39,310 BUT FIRST YOUR FOCUS NEEDS TO BE 521 00:26:39,310 --> 00:26:41,620 ON CHANGING YOUR DIET AND LOSING 80 POUNDS 522 00:26:41,620 --> 00:26:43,758 TO SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK HARD 523 00:26:43,758 --> 00:26:45,931 AND YOU'RE READY TO DO THIS, OKAY? 524 00:26:45,931 --> 00:26:47,413 OKAY. 525 00:26:47,413 --> 00:26:49,586 I'M ALSO GONNA GIVE YOU SOME EXERCISES 526 00:26:49,586 --> 00:26:51,241 TO START DOING, OKAY?OKAY. 527 00:26:51,241 --> 00:26:53,068 ANY SWELLING IN YOUR FEET? 528 00:26:53,068 --> 00:26:56,379 MM-HMM. I GOT MY... 529 00:26:56,379 --> 00:26:57,655 YEAH. RAISE IT UP, 530 00:26:57,655 --> 00:27:00,000 LET ME SEE, HOW IS YOUR LEG DOING? 531 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:03,655 SO YOU GOT LYMPHEDEMA IN BOTH LEGS? 532 00:27:03,655 --> 00:27:06,137 LET ME SEE THE OTHER ONE. 533 00:27:06,137 --> 00:27:07,344 YEAH. ALRIGHT. 534 00:27:07,344 --> 00:27:09,793 SO IF WE GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN, 535 00:27:09,793 --> 00:27:12,379 WE CAN HELP ADDRESS YOUR LYMPHEDEMA, OKAY? 536 00:27:12,379 --> 00:27:13,655 OKAY. 537 00:27:13,655 --> 00:27:16,310 SO YOU NEED TO START WORKING HARD TO DO THAT, OKAY? 538 00:27:16,310 --> 00:27:17,862 YEAH. 539 00:27:17,862 --> 00:27:20,517 DOES THAT MEAN I'M IN YOUR PROGRAM? 540 00:27:20,517 --> 00:27:22,517 WELL, IF YOU LOSE WEIGHT 541 00:27:22,517 --> 00:27:25,620 AND CHANGE YOUR EATING HABITS, YEAH. 542 00:27:25,620 --> 00:27:26,965 OKAY. OKAY? 543 00:27:26,965 --> 00:27:29,586 NOW, YOU SHOULD BE UNDER 200 POUNDS, 544 00:27:29,586 --> 00:27:33,034 SO YOU GOT ABOUT 460 POUNDS THAT YOU HAVE TO LOSE. 545 00:27:33,034 --> 00:27:34,724 OKAY. 546 00:27:34,724 --> 00:27:36,206 OKAY? OKAY. 547 00:27:36,206 --> 00:27:38,379 BUT THAT STARTS WITH LOSING 80 POUNDS 548 00:27:38,379 --> 00:27:39,793 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 549 00:27:39,793 --> 00:27:41,206 YES, SIR. 550 00:27:41,206 --> 00:27:42,965 ALRIGHT, IS THERE ANY OTHER QUESTION? 551 00:27:42,965 --> 00:27:44,034 I DON'T THINK SO. 552 00:27:44,034 --> 00:27:45,655 I THINK WE'RE GOOD. 553 00:27:45,655 --> 00:27:46,793 ALRIGHT.I THINK WE'RE OKAY. 554 00:27:46,793 --> 00:27:49,275 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 555 00:27:49,275 --> 00:27:50,344 OKAY. 556 00:27:50,344 --> 00:27:51,965 ALRIGHT. SEANA, NICE TO MEET YOU. 557 00:27:51,965 --> 00:27:52,862 NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 558 00:27:52,862 --> 00:27:54,448 NICE TO MEET YOU. 559 00:28:00,655 --> 00:28:02,724 Dr. Nowzaradan: MY CONCERN ABOUT SEANA RIGHT NOW 560 00:28:02,724 --> 00:28:05,172 IS THAT SHE DOESN'T SEEM VERY MOTIVATED 561 00:28:05,172 --> 00:28:07,344 TO START TURNING HER LIFE AROUND, 562 00:28:07,344 --> 00:28:08,827 AND THAT MAKES ME WONDER 563 00:28:08,827 --> 00:28:13,448 IF IT'S SOMEONE ELSE PUSHING HER TO DO THIS, POSSIBLY HER MOTHER 564 00:28:13,448 --> 00:28:16,275 BECAUSE THERE SEEMS TO BE A DYNAMIC BETWEEN THEM, 565 00:28:16,275 --> 00:28:20,310 WHERE SEANA IS STILL DEPENDENT ON HER MOTHER LIKE A CHILD IS. 566 00:28:20,310 --> 00:28:21,965 AND IF THAT'S THE CASE, 567 00:28:21,965 --> 00:28:24,793 WE'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE MUCH PROGRESS WITH HER 568 00:28:24,793 --> 00:28:26,655 UNLESS WE CHANGE THAT. 569 00:28:26,655 --> 00:28:29,379 BUT HOPEFULLY, SHE WILL SHOW ME THAT SHE'S MOTIVATED 570 00:28:29,379 --> 00:28:31,241 AND READY TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS, 571 00:28:31,241 --> 00:28:34,724 BY HITTING HER WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL BY HER NEXT APPOINTMENT. 572 00:28:39,344 --> 00:28:40,965 I'LL GO GET THE TRUCK. 573 00:28:44,241 --> 00:28:47,379 Seana: I'VE NEVER LOST WEIGHT LIKE DR. NOW WANTS ME TO LOSE. 574 00:28:47,379 --> 00:28:50,137 80 POUNDS IS SO MUCH. 575 00:28:50,137 --> 00:28:51,620 THINKING ABOUT HAVING TO LOSE THAT 576 00:28:51,620 --> 00:28:54,586 MAKES ME SCARED AND A LITTLE SICK TO MY STOMACH 577 00:28:54,586 --> 00:28:56,586 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO LET ANYONE DOWN. 578 00:28:56,586 --> 00:29:00,586 SO I'LL TRY MY HARDEST BECAUSE I'M REALLY WANTING TO MAKE IT. 579 00:29:17,103 --> 00:29:19,724 IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH SINCE I WENT TO SEE DR. NOW. 580 00:29:19,724 --> 00:29:23,586 I'VE ASKED DERRICKUS TO TRY AND GET ME HEALTHIER MEALS 581 00:29:23,586 --> 00:29:25,689 AND HELP ME FIGURE OUT A BETTER DIET. 582 00:29:25,689 --> 00:29:27,827 THERE'S LOTS OF PAPERS DR. NOW GAVE ME 583 00:29:27,827 --> 00:29:30,379 WITH HIS DIET AND EXERCISE ON THEM. 584 00:29:30,379 --> 00:29:32,862 I'M NOT SURE HOW, BUT I THINK I LEFT HIM IN A HOTEL 585 00:29:32,862 --> 00:29:35,068 ON THE WAY BACK HOME, 586 00:29:35,068 --> 00:29:37,172 AND I'VE BEEN SCARED TO TELL MY MOM OR CALL DR. NOW 587 00:29:37,172 --> 00:29:40,137 AND ASK HIM FOR ANOTHER ONE. 588 00:29:40,137 --> 00:29:41,896 BUT I'M HOPING WITH DERRICKUS HELPING ME, 589 00:29:41,896 --> 00:29:46,137 THAT I'M LOSING AS MUCH AS DR. NOW TOLD ME. 590 00:29:46,137 --> 00:29:48,931 I'M ALSO TRYING TO DO WALKING FOR EXERCISES 591 00:29:48,931 --> 00:29:50,862 TO BUILD UP MY STAMINA, 592 00:29:50,862 --> 00:29:52,862 AND I FEEL LIKE THAT'S ALL HELPING ME A LOT 593 00:29:52,862 --> 00:29:55,689 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN HARD. 594 00:29:55,689 --> 00:29:59,137 HERE YOU GO. IS THAT POTATOES? 595 00:29:59,137 --> 00:30:01,000 AND CORN. 596 00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:03,482 WHAT? POTATOES AND CORN. 597 00:30:03,482 --> 00:30:07,965 SO I'M HOPING IF I LOSE WHAT DR. NOW TOLD ME TO LOSE 598 00:30:07,965 --> 00:30:10,344 AND FIGURE OUT MOVING TO TEXAS, 599 00:30:10,344 --> 00:30:13,793 THAT HE'LL TELL ME I CAN DO HIS PROGRAM. 600 00:30:13,793 --> 00:30:17,241 I TALKED TO MY MOM ABOUT DERRICKUS COMING WITH ME, 601 00:30:17,241 --> 00:30:20,068 AND SHE SAID SHE'D KEEP PAYING HIM TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 602 00:30:27,206 --> 00:30:29,241 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MOVING TO TEXAS? 603 00:30:29,241 --> 00:30:30,275 HMM? 604 00:30:30,275 --> 00:30:32,172 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MOVING TO TEXAS? 605 00:30:34,517 --> 00:30:36,172 I DON'T KNOW. 606 00:30:36,172 --> 00:30:39,379 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MOVING TO TEXAS? 607 00:30:39,379 --> 00:30:41,448 I'M EXCITED, 608 00:30:41,448 --> 00:30:42,793 BUT I WISH I STILL HAD THE PAPERS HE GAVE ME, 609 00:30:42,793 --> 00:30:45,517 THAT HAD ALL THE DIETS AND EXERCISES ON IT. 610 00:30:45,517 --> 00:30:47,103 WHY HAVEN'T YOU CALLED HIM AND ASKED HIM? 611 00:30:47,103 --> 00:30:49,103 INFORMED HIM ON WHAT HAPPENED? 612 00:30:49,103 --> 00:30:50,862 BECAUSE I'M NERVOUS AND SCARED. 613 00:30:50,862 --> 00:30:51,965 HE'S GONNA BE LIKE, 614 00:30:51,965 --> 00:30:53,793 "THIS WHOLE TIME YOU HAVEN'T HAD THEM?" 615 00:30:53,793 --> 00:30:56,241 I'M GONNA BE LIKE, "NO." HE'S GONNA BE LIKE, "WHY?" 616 00:30:56,241 --> 00:30:57,517 I'M GONNA BE LIKE, 617 00:30:57,517 --> 00:30:59,896 "BECAUSE I WAS SO SCARED AND NERVOUS TO CALL YOU. 618 00:30:59,896 --> 00:31:02,379 I THOUGHT YOU WOULD JUST KICK ME OUT THE PROGRAM ALL TOGETHER." 619 00:31:02,379 --> 00:31:04,551 YOU COULD JUST TELL HIM YOU FORGOT ABOUT THEM 620 00:31:04,551 --> 00:31:06,206 IN A RENTAL CAR. 621 00:31:06,206 --> 00:31:07,482 HE'S GONNA BE LIKE, 622 00:31:07,482 --> 00:31:08,931 "SO IT TOOK YOU ALMOST A WHOLE MONTH TO REALIZE THAT?" 623 00:31:08,931 --> 00:31:11,862 I'M GONNA BE LIKE... 624 00:31:11,862 --> 00:31:15,275 "TURTLE MODE ACTIVATED." 625 00:31:15,275 --> 00:31:16,793 LIKE, I'LL BE SO SCARED. 626 00:31:16,793 --> 00:31:19,172 ANY WAY YOU LOOK AT IT, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO CALL HIM. 627 00:31:19,172 --> 00:31:20,965 I KNOW. 628 00:31:23,206 --> 00:31:26,758 MY LIFE LITERALLY REST IN THIS MAN'S HANDS. 629 00:31:28,482 --> 00:31:30,758 Seana: I DON'T WANT TO CALL DR. NOW. 630 00:31:30,758 --> 00:31:33,448 I JUST DON'T WANT HIM TO BE UPSET. 631 00:31:33,448 --> 00:31:35,379 WHAT I WANT TO DO IS KEEP DOING THE DIET 632 00:31:35,379 --> 00:31:38,310 I AM NOW AND MAKE IT ENOUGH. 633 00:31:38,310 --> 00:31:41,517 SO I'M TRYING THE HARDEST I CAN, BUT IT'S JUST NOT EASY. 634 00:32:01,517 --> 00:32:03,517 Seana: IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE MY DR. NOW APPOINTMENT, 635 00:32:03,517 --> 00:32:05,827 AND I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BACK FOR ANOTHER ONE 636 00:32:05,827 --> 00:32:08,965 SOMETIME LAST WEEK, BUT I WAS TOO SCARED TO GO 637 00:32:08,965 --> 00:32:12,620 BECAUSE I NEVER FOUND THE PAPERS WITH HIS DIET AND STUFF. 638 00:32:12,620 --> 00:32:15,448 I'VE BEEN JUST TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT WITHOUT THEM. 639 00:32:15,448 --> 00:32:17,655 DERRICKUS KEPT PUSHING ME TO CALL DR. NOW 640 00:32:17,655 --> 00:32:20,034 TO ASK HIM FOR ANOTHER COPY, 641 00:32:20,034 --> 00:32:22,931 BUT I WAS TOO SCARED ABOUT WHAT HE WOULD SAY. 642 00:32:22,931 --> 00:32:25,827 WHEN MY MOM CALLED ME TO ASK ME HOW IT WENT, 643 00:32:25,827 --> 00:32:28,034 I TOLD HER EVERYTHING AND SHE MADE ME PROMISE TO CALL 644 00:32:28,034 --> 00:32:31,103 DR. NOW, TO TELL HIM WHAT HAPPENED 645 00:32:31,103 --> 00:32:34,448 AND TO TRY AND SEE IF HE'LL STILL HELP ME. 646 00:32:34,448 --> 00:32:37,000 SO I'M DOING THAT, BUT I REALLY DON'T WANT TO. 647 00:32:44,586 --> 00:32:46,551 Woman Dr. Nowzaradan's office. 648 00:32:46,551 --> 00:32:49,137 HI, CAN I PLEASE TALK TO DR. NOWZARADAN? 649 00:32:49,137 --> 00:32:51,793 May I tell him who's calling? 650 00:32:51,793 --> 00:32:53,206 SEANA COLLINS. Okay. 651 00:32:56,862 --> 00:32:58,137 Dr. Nowzaradan: Hello. 652 00:32:58,137 --> 00:32:59,724 HI, DR. NOW. 653 00:32:59,724 --> 00:33:02,413 Hi, Seana, you missed your appointment, 654 00:33:02,413 --> 00:33:03,965 so if you're calling, 655 00:33:03,965 --> 00:33:07,137 I'm guessing you're still in Kansas City right now, huh? 656 00:33:07,137 --> 00:33:08,620 YES, SIR. 657 00:33:08,620 --> 00:33:10,000 What's going on? 658 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:12,172 You doing your diet and everything you need? 659 00:33:14,206 --> 00:33:16,793 UM, I'M DOING MY DIET, I THINK, 660 00:33:16,793 --> 00:33:18,862 BUT WHEN I WAS COMING BACK HOME, 661 00:33:18,862 --> 00:33:22,034 I LOST THE PAPERS YOU GAVE ME. 662 00:33:23,965 --> 00:33:25,413 So you lost the paper, 663 00:33:25,413 --> 00:33:29,689 and you didn't call us to get another copy? 664 00:33:29,689 --> 00:33:32,931 I WAS SCARED YOU WOULD GET MAD AT ME IF I CALLED BACK 665 00:33:32,931 --> 00:33:34,862 AND SAID I LOST THEM. 666 00:33:34,862 --> 00:33:38,689 Why should we get mad at you because you lost something? 667 00:33:38,689 --> 00:33:41,551 I DON'T KNOW. I JUST THOUGHT YOU'D BE MAD. 668 00:33:41,551 --> 00:33:43,482 Well, if you didn't have the diet, 669 00:33:43,482 --> 00:33:45,517 then you didn't know what to do, 670 00:33:45,517 --> 00:33:47,931 so I'm guessing you wasted two months of time, 671 00:33:47,931 --> 00:33:49,965 you could've been making progress. 672 00:33:49,965 --> 00:33:51,482 Is that the case? 673 00:33:51,482 --> 00:33:54,655 I DON'T THINK SO. I'VE STILL BEEN TRYING. 674 00:33:54,655 --> 00:33:57,275 You come and see us to get help. 675 00:33:57,275 --> 00:33:59,517 We give you the first step of that help, 676 00:33:59,517 --> 00:34:01,793 and you not only don't seem to care enough 677 00:34:01,793 --> 00:34:02,931 to keep track of it, 678 00:34:02,931 --> 00:34:05,793 but you don't try to get another one from us. 679 00:34:05,793 --> 00:34:08,758 You don't seem very motivated to do this. 680 00:34:08,758 --> 00:34:12,344 Tell me, what is the plan, what is your idea? 681 00:34:12,344 --> 00:34:16,137 TO ASK YOU IF YOU COULD SEND ME NEW PAPERS. 682 00:34:16,137 --> 00:34:18,379 That's what you should have done two months ago, 683 00:34:18,379 --> 00:34:20,827 but the diet is only a temporary thing 684 00:34:20,827 --> 00:34:22,965 to get you in the right path. 685 00:34:22,965 --> 00:34:24,965 But, eventually, what are you gonna do? 686 00:34:24,965 --> 00:34:26,586 Because you don't seem very concerned 687 00:34:26,586 --> 00:34:28,517 about turning your life around 688 00:34:28,517 --> 00:34:30,689 or that you really want to do this. 689 00:34:30,689 --> 00:34:33,896 I AM AND I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD ALREADY. 690 00:34:33,896 --> 00:34:35,724 Well, I hope that's true, 691 00:34:35,724 --> 00:34:37,724 but I doubt you made it to your goal. 692 00:34:37,724 --> 00:34:39,724 So this is what we're gonna do. 693 00:34:39,724 --> 00:34:41,379 I'm gonna give you one more month 694 00:34:41,379 --> 00:34:44,137 to lose 50 pounds from your last weigh-in. 695 00:34:44,137 --> 00:34:46,931 If you've already been losing weight like you're saying, 696 00:34:46,931 --> 00:34:48,724 this should be no problem. 697 00:34:48,724 --> 00:34:52,103 Doing the diet, you should be able to lose a lot more. 698 00:34:52,103 --> 00:34:54,206 Okay? OKAY. 699 00:34:54,206 --> 00:34:57,689 Okay, we'll send you another copy of the diet again, okay? 700 00:34:57,689 --> 00:34:59,137 OKAY. 701 00:34:59,137 --> 00:35:01,482 But you need to eat only three times a day, 702 00:35:01,482 --> 00:35:02,655 no snacking in between. 703 00:35:02,655 --> 00:35:04,586 Only meat and vegetable, 704 00:35:04,586 --> 00:35:07,275 and no high-calorie foods, okay? 705 00:35:07,275 --> 00:35:09,724 I ALSO STOPPED SNACKING, 706 00:35:09,724 --> 00:35:13,241 AND I STOPPED DRINKING SODA, TOO. 707 00:35:13,241 --> 00:35:15,241 Okay, that's great. YEAH. 708 00:35:27,206 --> 00:35:28,344 YES, SIR. 709 00:35:28,344 --> 00:35:30,103 I'M GONNA TRY HARDER, I PROMISE. 710 00:35:30,103 --> 00:35:33,724 Okay, good. If you need anything, let me know. 711 00:35:33,724 --> 00:35:35,310 OKAY. Alright. 712 00:35:35,310 --> 00:35:36,310 THANK YOU. 713 00:35:36,310 --> 00:35:37,275 Bye. BYE-BYE. 714 00:35:43,068 --> 00:35:44,448 Seana: I'M FEELING REALLY BAD 715 00:35:44,448 --> 00:35:48,172 BECAUSE I KNOW DR. NOW ISN'T HAPPY WITH ME, 716 00:35:48,172 --> 00:35:52,000 BUT I'M GLAD HE'S GIVING ME THE PAPERS AGAIN AND MORE TIME, 717 00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:56,586 BUT THAT'S STILL A LOT OF WEIGHT TO LOSE BY THEN. 718 00:35:56,586 --> 00:36:01,172 IT JUST SUCKS, ME NOT WANTING TO DISAPPOINT PEOPLE. 719 00:36:01,172 --> 00:36:02,655 IT MAKES IT HARDER FOR ME TO TRY 720 00:36:02,655 --> 00:36:05,862 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M ALREADY DISAPPOINTING THEM. 721 00:36:05,862 --> 00:36:09,034 SO WHAT'S THE POINT IN EVEN TRYING? 722 00:36:26,034 --> 00:36:29,517 I'M BACK IN HOUSTON FOR ANOTHER APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 723 00:36:29,517 --> 00:36:30,896 DERRICKUS DROVE ME DOWN THIS TIME, 724 00:36:30,896 --> 00:36:33,172 BECAUSE MY MOM IS STILL TRAVELING FOR A WHILE. 725 00:36:36,275 --> 00:36:38,310 THIS TRIP DRIVING HERE 726 00:36:38,310 --> 00:36:41,586 IS TOO HARD FOR ME TO DO WITHOUT ANY HELP. 727 00:36:41,586 --> 00:36:43,206 MY MOM WANTS ME TO CALL HER AFTER I'M DONE 728 00:36:43,206 --> 00:36:46,965 WITH THE APPOINTMENT TO TELL HER WHAT HAPPENED. 729 00:36:46,965 --> 00:36:50,137 I'M REALLY SCARED TO FIND OUT MY PROGRESS 730 00:36:50,137 --> 00:36:53,689 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO LET HER OR DR. NOW DOWN. 731 00:36:53,689 --> 00:36:56,724 THE PAPERS DR. NOW SENT ME WITH HIS DIET AND EXERCISES 732 00:36:56,724 --> 00:36:59,896 WERE A LOT HARDER THAN WHAT I WAS DOING. 733 00:36:59,896 --> 00:37:02,413 I TRIED TO DO WHAT THEY SAID, 734 00:37:02,413 --> 00:37:06,206 BUT AFTER A FEW DAYS, I LOST THEM AGAIN. 735 00:37:06,206 --> 00:37:09,206 I TRIED TO REPRINT THEM, BUT I COULDN'T FIND THE E-MAIL, 736 00:37:09,206 --> 00:37:12,551 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. 737 00:37:12,551 --> 00:37:13,896 SEANA. 738 00:37:16,896 --> 00:37:19,551 SO I'VE JUST BEEN TRYING REALLY, REALLY HARD. 739 00:37:19,551 --> 00:37:23,689 I DO AS MUCH AS I CAN TO DIET AND LOSE WEIGHT 740 00:37:23,689 --> 00:37:26,793 BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T WANT TO MESS THIS UP 741 00:37:26,793 --> 00:37:28,620 AND LET EVERYONE DOWN AGAIN. 742 00:37:41,103 --> 00:37:45,103 Seana: I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE WITH DERRICKUS, 743 00:37:45,103 --> 00:37:49,827 TO SEE HOW MY WEIGHT LOSS DID AND IF MY DIET WAS ENOUGH. 744 00:37:49,827 --> 00:37:52,965 AT MY LAST WEIGH-IN, I WAS 659. 745 00:37:52,965 --> 00:37:56,137 DR. NOW CHANGED MY GOAL TO LOSE 50 POUNDS, 746 00:37:56,137 --> 00:37:58,586 SO I NEED TO SEE A NUMBER BELOW 609. 747 00:38:15,517 --> 00:38:18,103 I'M NOT SURE WHAT HAPPENED. 748 00:38:18,103 --> 00:38:20,551 I THOUGHT I WAS TRYING REALLY HARD, 749 00:38:20,551 --> 00:38:22,517 AND THAT I'D HAVE BETTER PROGRESS, 750 00:38:22,517 --> 00:38:26,620 SO I'M REALLY SCARED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS. 751 00:38:26,620 --> 00:38:28,310 HELLO. HELLO. 752 00:38:28,310 --> 00:38:30,103 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 753 00:38:30,103 --> 00:38:31,586 GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 754 00:38:31,586 --> 00:38:32,724 I'M GOOD, THANKS. 755 00:38:32,724 --> 00:38:34,793 AND WHO IS THE PARTNER WITH YOU? 756 00:38:34,793 --> 00:38:36,310 MY COUSIN, DERRICKUS. 757 00:38:36,310 --> 00:38:38,655 NICE TO MEET YOU. ALRIGHT. 758 00:38:38,655 --> 00:38:41,172 SEANA, IT'S THREE MONTHS LATER, 759 00:38:41,172 --> 00:38:43,827 AND YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT. 760 00:38:43,827 --> 00:38:45,379 SO WHAT'S GOING ON? 761 00:38:45,379 --> 00:38:47,758 UH... 762 00:38:47,758 --> 00:38:50,896 I DIDN'T READ THE BOOKLET BECAUSE I LOST IT AGAIN. 763 00:38:50,896 --> 00:38:53,482 YOU'RE TELLING ME YOU LOST IT AGAIN? 764 00:38:53,482 --> 00:38:54,689 YES. YEAH. 765 00:38:54,689 --> 00:38:57,310 THE SECOND TIME?YEAH. 766 00:38:57,310 --> 00:38:59,689 YOU LOST THE E-MAIL, TOO?YEAH. 767 00:38:59,689 --> 00:39:03,034 SO WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL ME AGAIN AND ASK FOR IT? 768 00:39:03,034 --> 00:39:05,206 I WAS AFRAID YOU'D BE MAD AT ME. 769 00:39:05,206 --> 00:39:07,689 NO, I WOULDN'T GET MAD OF YOU THEN, 770 00:39:07,689 --> 00:39:10,827 BUT I GET MAD AT YOU NOW FOR DOING NOTHING 771 00:39:10,827 --> 00:39:12,793 AND WASTING ALL THAT TIME. 772 00:39:12,793 --> 00:39:14,448 YEAH. 773 00:39:14,448 --> 00:39:16,931 AND YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT. 774 00:39:16,931 --> 00:39:18,172 YEAH. 775 00:39:18,172 --> 00:39:20,103 SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING HERE 776 00:39:20,103 --> 00:39:22,931 FROM KANSAS CITY TO HOUSTON 777 00:39:22,931 --> 00:39:26,034 AND GOING BACK AND COMING BACK 778 00:39:26,034 --> 00:39:28,827 AND NOT LOSING WEIGHT IN ALL THAT TIME? 779 00:39:28,827 --> 00:39:32,413 SO, WHAT IS WITH THAT? 780 00:39:32,413 --> 00:39:33,413 I DON'T KNOW. 781 00:39:33,413 --> 00:39:35,620 WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW? 782 00:39:35,620 --> 00:39:38,206 I GUESS IT WAS JUST LAZY ON MY PART. 783 00:39:38,206 --> 00:39:42,103 YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF WITH THE FOOD, BE MY GUEST. 784 00:39:42,103 --> 00:39:44,724 SO WHY EVEN LOSE WEIGHT? 785 00:39:44,724 --> 00:39:46,517 HMM? 786 00:39:46,517 --> 00:39:49,551 I DIDN'T PUT ANY EFFORT IN, I GUESS. 787 00:39:49,551 --> 00:39:50,931 WHAT DO YOU MEAN? 788 00:39:50,931 --> 00:39:52,965 I DIDN'T DO MY PART LIKE I SHOULD HAVE BY CALLING YOU 789 00:39:52,965 --> 00:39:55,103 AND TELLING YOU THAT I LOST IT. 790 00:39:55,103 --> 00:39:56,344 WELL, YOU DIDN'T DO THAT, 791 00:39:56,344 --> 00:39:59,482 BUT COULDN'T YOU EAT MORE APPROPRIATELY? 792 00:39:59,482 --> 00:40:04,482 FOR YOU TO BE 650 POUNDS, 793 00:40:04,482 --> 00:40:07,827 YOU HAVE TO EAT 7,000 TO 8,000 CALORIE A DAY 794 00:40:07,827 --> 00:40:09,448 TO KEEP THAT WEIGHT GOING. 795 00:40:09,448 --> 00:40:10,965 YES, SIR. 796 00:40:10,965 --> 00:40:13,896 SO WHAT IS THAT POINT OF EATING THAT MUCH 797 00:40:13,896 --> 00:40:15,413 AND COMING DOWN HERE 798 00:40:15,413 --> 00:40:18,793 AND GIVE ME THE SAD STORY OF YOU LOST THE PAPER? 799 00:40:18,793 --> 00:40:20,689 THE DIET WILL HELP YOU HIT THE GOAL, 800 00:40:20,689 --> 00:40:23,310 BUT WITHOUT IT, YOU COULD HAVE STILL LOST SOMETHING. 801 00:40:23,310 --> 00:40:24,689 THE PAPER WAS THE ONLY THING 802 00:40:24,689 --> 00:40:26,482 THAT'S GONNA KEEP YOU FROM LOSING WEIGHT? 803 00:40:26,482 --> 00:40:27,517 NO. 804 00:40:27,517 --> 00:40:29,103 YOU SAID YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE LOSING. 805 00:40:29,103 --> 00:40:30,827 SO WHAT HAPPENED? 806 00:40:30,827 --> 00:40:32,517 I DON'T KNOW. 807 00:40:32,517 --> 00:40:34,068 SO WHAT IS IT? 808 00:40:34,068 --> 00:40:36,793 YOU'RE EATING WHATEVER, WHENEVER, 809 00:40:36,793 --> 00:40:41,931 AND EXPECTING ANYBODY ELSE TO DO THE JOB FOR YOU? 810 00:40:41,931 --> 00:40:43,103 NO, SIR. 811 00:40:43,103 --> 00:40:45,793 SO WHAT DO YOU EXPECT TO HAPPEN? 812 00:40:45,793 --> 00:40:48,068 THAT I MAGICALLY MAKE YOU LOSE WEIGHT? 813 00:40:48,068 --> 00:40:49,379 NO. 814 00:40:49,379 --> 00:40:52,103 I HAVE TO DO MY PART, AND I DIDN'T. 815 00:40:52,103 --> 00:40:53,206 WELL, RIGHT NOW, 816 00:40:53,206 --> 00:40:55,896 IT DOESN'T SEEM THAT YOU HAVE ANY INTEREST 817 00:40:55,896 --> 00:40:57,724 IN MAKING ANY CHANGES, 818 00:40:57,724 --> 00:41:00,137 BECAUSE WE GAVE YOU THE INSTRUCTION, 819 00:41:00,137 --> 00:41:01,344 YOU LOST THE INSTRUCTION. 820 00:41:01,344 --> 00:41:02,413 WE GAVE IT TO YOU AGAIN, 821 00:41:02,413 --> 00:41:04,620 AND YOU LOST IT THE SECOND TIME. 822 00:41:04,620 --> 00:41:08,034 SO FAR, EVERY CHOICE YOU MADE SHOWS ME 823 00:41:08,034 --> 00:41:10,517 THIS DOESN'T REALLY MATTER TO YOU. 824 00:41:10,517 --> 00:41:12,586 NO, SIR. IT DOES. 825 00:41:12,586 --> 00:41:14,827 WELL, IF THIS IS IMPORTANT TO YOU, 826 00:41:14,827 --> 00:41:17,586 THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO ABOUT IT? 827 00:41:17,586 --> 00:41:20,000 TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT. 828 00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:22,689 OKAY. AND WHAT IS STOPPING YOU FROM DOING THAT? 829 00:41:25,586 --> 00:41:27,275 EATING TOO MUCH. 830 00:41:27,275 --> 00:41:30,896 WHY? 831 00:41:30,896 --> 00:41:33,724 DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT'S HARMING YOU? 832 00:41:33,724 --> 00:41:34,827 YES, SIR. 833 00:41:34,827 --> 00:41:36,103 YOU DO? 834 00:41:36,103 --> 00:41:37,137 KIND OF, YEAH. 835 00:41:37,137 --> 00:41:39,344 OKAY. THEN WHAT DO YOU DO ABOUT IT? 836 00:41:42,379 --> 00:41:44,655 I SHOULD STOP. 837 00:41:44,655 --> 00:41:46,689 NO, WE DON'T WANT YOU TO STOP EATING, 838 00:41:46,689 --> 00:41:48,551 WE WANT YOU TO EAT NORMAL.I KNOW, BUT I KNOW LIKE... 839 00:41:48,551 --> 00:41:52,586 WELL, YEAH, LIKE, EAT BETTER CHOICES. 840 00:41:52,586 --> 00:41:54,241 BETTER CHOICES?YEAH. TO EAT LESS. 841 00:41:54,241 --> 00:41:59,931 SO I'LL GIVE YOU AN INSTRUCTION, 842 00:41:59,931 --> 00:42:03,827 IF YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE THOSE A PART OF YOUR PROGRAM 843 00:42:03,827 --> 00:42:05,344 AND WORK ON THEM? 844 00:42:05,344 --> 00:42:06,448 YES, SIR. 845 00:42:06,448 --> 00:42:08,344 YOU'LL NEVER LOSE THEM AGAIN, NOW? 846 00:42:08,344 --> 00:42:09,620 NO. 847 00:42:09,620 --> 00:42:13,137 OKAY, SO YOU READY TO DO THIS OR NOT? 848 00:42:13,137 --> 00:42:14,275 YEAH. 849 00:42:14,275 --> 00:42:17,379 OKAY. IS YOUR FAMILY HELPING YOU TO DO THAT? 850 00:42:17,379 --> 00:42:18,689 YES, SIR. 851 00:42:18,689 --> 00:42:19,931 WHERE'S YOUR MOM? 852 00:42:19,931 --> 00:42:22,241 I THOUGHT SHE WAS GONNA HELP YOU DO THIS. 853 00:42:22,241 --> 00:42:23,620 SHE COULDN'T BE HERE. 854 00:42:23,620 --> 00:42:26,137 SO IS SHE HELPING YOU WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS? 855 00:42:26,137 --> 00:42:27,586 I'M THE HOMEMAKER. 856 00:42:27,586 --> 00:42:31,689 I MAKE SURE SHE KEEPS EVERYTHING NEAT AND STUFF. 857 00:42:31,689 --> 00:42:33,172 I HELP HER AROUND THE HOUSE 858 00:42:33,172 --> 00:42:35,793 AND GET HER AROUND AND MOVE AROUND 859 00:42:35,793 --> 00:42:39,172 TO GET MORE EXERCISE AND... 860 00:42:39,172 --> 00:42:41,517 OKAY, WELL, IF YOU ARE HELPING HER 861 00:42:41,517 --> 00:42:44,000 DOING ANYTHING TO GET HEALTHY, 862 00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:48,241 SHOULDN'T WE SEE SOME RESULT ON THE SCALE? 863 00:42:48,241 --> 00:42:50,206 BUT THERE ARE NO RESULTS, 864 00:42:50,206 --> 00:42:52,620 SO NONE OF THIS ADDS UP. 865 00:42:52,620 --> 00:42:54,241 SO WHO COOKS? 866 00:42:54,241 --> 00:42:56,137 I DO ALL THE COOKING AND CLEANING. 867 00:42:56,137 --> 00:42:59,275 SHE WANT TO EAT SOMETHING, YOU GIVE IT TO HER? 868 00:42:59,275 --> 00:43:01,655 I COOK IT AND I -- 869 00:43:01,655 --> 00:43:04,137 MY THING IS I COOK IT, AND I MAKE HER TRY 870 00:43:04,137 --> 00:43:06,413 TO GO MAKE HER TO DO 871 00:43:06,413 --> 00:43:09,379 SO SHE CAN MOVE AROUND, MAKE HER FIX HER OWN PLATE. 872 00:43:09,379 --> 00:43:13,551 I CANNOT GET HER TO EAT VEGETABLES. 873 00:43:13,551 --> 00:43:15,068 SHE EATS A LOT OF MEAT, 874 00:43:15,068 --> 00:43:17,586 BUT SHE JUST WON'T EAT THE VEGETABLES. 875 00:43:17,586 --> 00:43:21,000 UNLESS IT'S THE ONE SHE LIKES, LIKE POTATOES AND CORN. 876 00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:24,172 NO. 877 00:43:24,172 --> 00:43:25,862 WELL, IF SHE EATS LIKE YOU SAY, 878 00:43:25,862 --> 00:43:29,310 THEN WHERE ARE THE EXTRA CALORIE COMING, 879 00:43:29,310 --> 00:43:30,827 BEING 650 POUNDS? 880 00:43:30,827 --> 00:43:33,517 PROBABLY HER SNACKING HABITS. 881 00:43:33,517 --> 00:43:37,068 WHEN I'M AT WORK. 882 00:43:37,068 --> 00:43:40,965 YOU'RE 22 AND 650 POUNDS, 883 00:43:40,965 --> 00:43:43,034 ALMOST 660, REALLY. 884 00:43:43,034 --> 00:43:45,206 YOU COULD HAVE YOUR WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF YOU. 885 00:43:45,206 --> 00:43:46,896 DON'T YOU WANT THAT? 886 00:43:46,896 --> 00:43:47,965 YES. 887 00:43:47,965 --> 00:43:50,275 DO YOU HAVE A GOAL IN YOUR LIFE? 888 00:43:50,275 --> 00:43:51,241 YEAH. 889 00:43:51,241 --> 00:43:53,793 WHAT IS YOUR GOAL IN YOUR LIFE? 890 00:43:53,793 --> 00:43:56,482 TO BE A TOUR-BUS DRIVER. 891 00:43:56,482 --> 00:43:58,310 WHY TOUR BUS? 892 00:43:59,689 --> 00:44:05,172 BECAUSE I LIKE THE THOUGHT OF TOURING WITH BANDS AND STUFF. 893 00:44:05,172 --> 00:44:06,241 OKAY. 894 00:44:06,241 --> 00:44:10,137 MY MOM DOES IT, AND I LIKE HER JOB. 895 00:44:10,137 --> 00:44:11,413 OKAY. 896 00:44:11,413 --> 00:44:16,137 AND SO, HOW DO YOU THINK YOU CAN GET THAT JOB? 897 00:44:16,137 --> 00:44:17,000 I DON'T... 898 00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:18,793 AT THIS RATE YOU'RE GOING, 899 00:44:18,793 --> 00:44:22,586 YOU'RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT TO 30, YOU KNOW THAT, RIGHT? 900 00:44:22,586 --> 00:44:24,517 YES, SIR. 901 00:44:24,517 --> 00:44:28,000 SO, YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF WITH THE FOOD, 902 00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:31,758 AND WE'RE TRYING TO STOP YOU FROM DOING THAT, 903 00:44:31,758 --> 00:44:34,103 AND IT DOESN'T SEEM TO MATTER TO YOU. 904 00:44:34,103 --> 00:44:38,862 OR YOU ARE IN THE WORLD THAT THAT DOESN'T EXIST, 905 00:44:38,862 --> 00:44:42,206 AND YOU GOT A COCOON AROUND YOURSELF, 906 00:44:42,206 --> 00:44:47,275 AND YOU'RE NOT SEEING THE REALITY OF WHAT'S GOING ON, 907 00:44:47,275 --> 00:44:49,137 AND YOU DEPEND ON EVERYBODY ELSE 908 00:44:49,137 --> 00:44:52,206 TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES FOR YOU. OKAY? 909 00:44:52,206 --> 00:44:54,344 AND NONE OF THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN 910 00:44:54,344 --> 00:44:56,758 UNTIL YOU DECIDE TO CHANGE IT. 911 00:44:56,758 --> 00:44:59,413 NOBODY ELSE CAN DO THAT FOR YOU. 912 00:44:59,413 --> 00:45:02,482 SO EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU. 913 00:45:02,482 --> 00:45:05,413 NOT EVERYBODY ELSE, IT'S YOUR LIFE, 914 00:45:05,413 --> 00:45:09,172 AND YOU GOT TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES. 915 00:45:09,172 --> 00:45:11,827 ALRIGHT? IF YOU WANT TO LIVE LONGER, 916 00:45:11,827 --> 00:45:14,758 THEN YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO THE RIGHT THING. 917 00:45:14,758 --> 00:45:16,689 YES, SIR. OKAY? 918 00:45:16,689 --> 00:45:20,379 SO WE'LL GIVE YOU ONE LAST CHANCE TO DO THAT, 919 00:45:20,379 --> 00:45:23,344 BUT IF YOU COME NEXT MONTH AND YOU DON'T LOSE WEIGHT, 920 00:45:23,344 --> 00:45:25,827 I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE WE CAN DO FOR YOU. 921 00:45:25,827 --> 00:45:27,689 YES, SIR. 922 00:45:27,689 --> 00:45:30,827 AND YOU'RE IN A PATHWAY THAT YOU'RE GONNA KILL YOURSELF, 923 00:45:30,827 --> 00:45:33,379 AND NOBODY CAN HELP YOU WITH THAT. 924 00:45:33,379 --> 00:45:34,620 YOU'RE 650 POUNDS. 925 00:45:34,620 --> 00:45:37,137 IF YOU STICK WITH A 1,200-CALORIE DIET, 926 00:45:37,137 --> 00:45:39,379 YOU CAN LOSE 100 POUNDS A MONTH. 927 00:45:39,379 --> 00:45:41,137 BUT WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO 928 00:45:41,137 --> 00:45:44,413 IS TO ONLY LOSE 80 POUNDS OVER 2 MONTHS. 929 00:45:44,413 --> 00:45:46,000 THAT'S 40 POUNDS A MONTH, 930 00:45:46,000 --> 00:45:49,206 AND YOU SHOULD EASILY BE ABLE TO DO THAT, OKAY? 931 00:45:49,206 --> 00:45:53,103 MM-HMM.SO THAT SHOULD BE EASY GOING. 932 00:45:53,103 --> 00:45:54,241 YOU KNOW? 933 00:45:54,241 --> 00:45:56,551 THAT'S NOT GONNA BE VERY HARD TO DO. OKAY? 934 00:45:56,551 --> 00:45:58,103 MM-HMM. 935 00:45:58,103 --> 00:46:00,551 ALRIGHT. SO LET'S DO THAT, 936 00:46:00,551 --> 00:46:04,068 AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 937 00:46:04,068 --> 00:46:06,827 OKAY.ALRIGHT. ANY OTHER QUESTION? 938 00:46:06,827 --> 00:46:08,344 NO, SIR. 939 00:46:08,344 --> 00:46:09,931 MAKE SURE THE EXERCISE, 940 00:46:09,931 --> 00:46:12,620 AND WE'LL GIVE YOU THE READING MATERIAL. 941 00:46:12,620 --> 00:46:14,793 THIS TIME, DON'T LOSE IT. OKAY? 942 00:46:14,793 --> 00:46:15,965 YES, SIR. 943 00:46:15,965 --> 00:46:18,000 ALRIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 944 00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:21,172 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING BEFORE THEN, GIVE ME A CALL. 945 00:46:21,172 --> 00:46:22,103 OKAY. 946 00:46:22,103 --> 00:46:23,620 ALRIGHT. I'LL SEE Y'ALL LATER. 947 00:46:23,620 --> 00:46:25,793 THANK YOU. OKAY. 948 00:46:30,724 --> 00:46:33,827 Dr. Nowzaradan: SO FAR, SEANA HAS ONLY CONFIRMED MY CONCERNS 949 00:46:33,827 --> 00:46:35,931 ABOUT THE ISSUES WE MAY HAVE WITH HER, 950 00:46:35,931 --> 00:46:37,965 AND HOW DIFFICULT IT'S GONNA BE 951 00:46:37,965 --> 00:46:41,172 TO START TURNING HER SITUATION AROUND. 952 00:46:41,172 --> 00:46:43,896 THE BIGGEST ISSUE BEING THAT SHE HASN'T DECIDED 953 00:46:43,896 --> 00:46:46,827 WHETHER SHE REALLY WANTS TO DO THIS OR NOT, 954 00:46:46,827 --> 00:46:50,689 BUT ALL SHE NEEDS TO SHOW ME IS A LITTLE BIT OF REAL EFFORT 955 00:46:50,689 --> 00:46:52,482 TO PROVE TO ME SHE'S READY TO DO 956 00:46:52,482 --> 00:46:56,034 WHAT IT TAKES TO TAKE BACK CONTROL OF HER LIFE. 957 00:47:00,620 --> 00:47:02,655 Seana: I'M JUST MORE UPSET NOW, 958 00:47:02,655 --> 00:47:05,241 BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT HE'D UNDERSTAND, 959 00:47:05,241 --> 00:47:07,448 BUT HE DIDN'T REALLY. 960 00:47:07,448 --> 00:47:10,172 INSTEAD, HE GAVE ME THE 80-POUNDS GOAL AGAIN 961 00:47:10,172 --> 00:47:12,689 AND TOLD ME I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT OR I'M GONNA DIE, 962 00:47:12,689 --> 00:47:16,379 AND I'M SCARED THAT HE SAID THAT. 963 00:47:16,379 --> 00:47:19,586 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, IT'S TRUE, SO I NEED TO FIX IT. 964 00:47:38,931 --> 00:47:42,482 THE PAST MONTH HAS NOT GONE ANYWHERE LIKE HOW I WANTED IT. 965 00:47:42,482 --> 00:47:44,620 BASICALLY, MY MOM TOLD ME I HAD TO MOVE OUT, 966 00:47:44,620 --> 00:47:48,689 AND I HAD NOWHERE TO LIVE ALL OF A SUDDEN. 967 00:47:48,689 --> 00:47:52,206 SO I BASICALLY HAD TO PACK EVERYTHING AND MOVE OUT. 968 00:47:54,724 --> 00:47:56,482 MY MOM GAVE ME A LITTLE MONEY TO TRY 969 00:47:56,482 --> 00:47:58,931 AND HELP ME TRANSITION TO BEING ON MY OWN. 970 00:48:01,482 --> 00:48:03,517 AND SHE ALSO TOLD ME THAT SHE CAN'T KEEP PAYING 971 00:48:03,517 --> 00:48:05,517 DERRICKUS TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 972 00:48:05,517 --> 00:48:09,586 SO, I HAVE NO ONE TO MOVE TO TEXAS WITH ME NOW. 973 00:48:09,586 --> 00:48:13,034 SO, I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE HAS JUST FLIPPED UPSIDE DOWN. 974 00:48:13,034 --> 00:48:16,931 I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO SURVIVE, 975 00:48:16,931 --> 00:48:23,172 AND I'M SCARED BECAUSE I FEEL REALLY LOST. 976 00:48:23,172 --> 00:48:24,827 I JUST FEEL BAD AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT, 977 00:48:24,827 --> 00:48:26,379 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, 978 00:48:26,379 --> 00:48:29,758 AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S GOING TO ALL CRUMBLE DOWN AROUND ME. 979 00:48:29,758 --> 00:48:32,034 I HATE BEING BY MYSELF BECAUSE I KNOW WHENEVER I'M ALONE, 980 00:48:32,034 --> 00:48:36,724 I JUST FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING JUST GOES SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL, 981 00:48:36,724 --> 00:48:38,724 AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. 982 00:48:44,241 --> 00:48:45,827 I NEED HELP. 983 00:49:08,310 --> 00:49:10,931 Seana: I MISSED MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW AGAIN. 984 00:49:10,931 --> 00:49:13,517 I JUST NEED MORE TIME 985 00:49:13,517 --> 00:49:15,931 BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO GET BACK ON MY OWN TWO FEET 986 00:49:15,931 --> 00:49:18,827 AND FIGURE OUT MY LIVING SITUATION LONG-TERM, 987 00:49:18,827 --> 00:49:20,241 BECAUSE I'LL BE OUT OF THE MONEY MY MOM 988 00:49:20,241 --> 00:49:22,482 GAVE ME IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS. 989 00:49:22,482 --> 00:49:24,103 I TRIED LOOKING FOR A JOB ONLINE 990 00:49:24,103 --> 00:49:26,172 THAT I COULD HANDLE TO MAKE SOME MONEY, 991 00:49:26,172 --> 00:49:28,724 BUT THERE'S NOTHING I COULD FIND. 992 00:49:28,724 --> 00:49:32,793 SO, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 993 00:49:32,793 --> 00:49:36,206 I'M SCARED I'M JUST LETTING EVERYONE DOWN CONSTANTLY. 994 00:49:36,206 --> 00:49:39,482 AND I KNOW DR. NOW'S NOT HAPPY WITH ME EITHER. 995 00:49:39,482 --> 00:49:43,482 I'M TALKING TO HIM TODAY BECAUSE HE WANTS TO TALK TO ME, 996 00:49:43,482 --> 00:49:45,862 SO I TOLD HIS OFFICE PEOPLE I'D DO IT. 997 00:49:48,862 --> 00:49:51,827 I'M HOPING HE UNDERSTANDS THAT I'M TRYING. 998 00:50:05,655 --> 00:50:08,068 Hi, Seana. HI. 999 00:50:08,068 --> 00:50:09,241 How are you? 1000 00:50:09,241 --> 00:50:10,931 I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1001 00:50:10,931 --> 00:50:12,379 Alright. 1002 00:50:12,379 --> 00:50:16,241 So, it's been several months since I've seen you 1003 00:50:16,241 --> 00:50:18,931 and you've missed another appointment. 1004 00:50:18,931 --> 00:50:20,517 What's going on with you? 1005 00:50:20,517 --> 00:50:23,448 UM... 1006 00:50:23,448 --> 00:50:25,620 I DON'T KNOW RIGHT NOW. 1007 00:50:25,620 --> 00:50:27,896 Is mom not with you anymore? 1008 00:50:27,896 --> 00:50:31,517 NO, SHE MOVED TO ARIZONA FOR WORK. 1009 00:50:31,517 --> 00:50:32,448 Okay. 1010 00:50:32,448 --> 00:50:35,551 So what happened to Derrickus? 1011 00:50:35,551 --> 00:50:37,379 HE ABANDONED ME. 1012 00:50:37,379 --> 00:50:39,551 HE'S LEFT. 1013 00:50:39,551 --> 00:50:44,517 IT WAS JUST -- JUST ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER. 1014 00:50:44,517 --> 00:50:46,655 Well, Seana, so it seems 1015 00:50:46,655 --> 00:50:48,620 like nothing going right for you 1016 00:50:48,620 --> 00:50:49,896 in Kansas City, 1017 00:50:49,896 --> 00:50:52,448 and you have no support system. 1018 00:50:52,448 --> 00:50:55,413 It's not benefiting you staying over there. 1019 00:50:55,413 --> 00:50:58,275 So, it's better for you to come down to Houston 1020 00:50:58,275 --> 00:51:00,896 so we can help you and have a support system for you 1021 00:51:00,896 --> 00:51:02,551 and get you in the program, 1022 00:51:02,551 --> 00:51:05,586 so you can lose weight and change your life. 1023 00:51:05,586 --> 00:51:07,620 Do you think you can do that? 1024 00:51:07,620 --> 00:51:10,137 NO. Why? 1025 00:51:10,137 --> 00:51:13,448 BECAUSE I HAVE NO WAY DOWN THERE. 1026 00:51:13,448 --> 00:51:15,827 I HAVE NO ONE TO HELP ME MOVE. 1027 00:51:15,827 --> 00:51:18,241 I HAVE NO WAY TO GO DOWN THERE. 1028 00:51:18,241 --> 00:51:20,758 So, what option we got for you? 1029 00:51:20,758 --> 00:51:23,482 I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW RIGHT NOW. 1030 00:51:23,482 --> 00:51:26,206 Seana, it's not looking like you really want to do this, 1031 00:51:26,206 --> 00:51:27,379 because you came down here 1032 00:51:27,379 --> 00:51:29,448 and we gave you a diet over six months ago, 1033 00:51:29,448 --> 00:51:31,517 but it doesn't look like you have lost any weight. 1034 00:51:31,517 --> 00:51:37,724 And you're almost 700 pounds, BMI 100, 23 years old, 1035 00:51:37,724 --> 00:51:42,482 and not able to do anything to change your life. 1036 00:51:42,482 --> 00:51:44,862 You're not gonna live long at all. 1037 00:51:44,862 --> 00:51:47,172 So, what are your ambitions 1038 00:51:47,172 --> 00:51:51,551 and what do you want to do with your life? 1039 00:51:51,551 --> 00:51:54,586 I WANT TO COME DOWN THERE, BUT I HAVE NO WAY. 1040 00:51:54,586 --> 00:51:56,310 Well, if you can, 1041 00:51:56,310 --> 00:51:59,758 why haven't you been able to follow the diet? 1042 00:51:59,758 --> 00:52:02,206 Do you still have the diet? 1043 00:52:02,206 --> 00:52:08,034 THOSE ARE IN THE BOXES I HAVE PACKED, MY STUFF. 1044 00:52:08,034 --> 00:52:11,379 I WASN'T ABLE TO BRING ALL MY STUFF WITH ME, SO... 1045 00:52:11,379 --> 00:52:14,344 Okay, so what good does it do packed up? 1046 00:52:14,344 --> 00:52:15,758 I DON'T KNOW. 1047 00:52:15,758 --> 00:52:18,724 Seana, I think at this point, you need to find a way 1048 00:52:18,724 --> 00:52:23,206 to come down to Houston and be part of a program 1049 00:52:23,206 --> 00:52:24,965 so we can get your weight down. 1050 00:52:24,965 --> 00:52:29,379 Because it looks like you're almost gonna hit 700 pound 1051 00:52:29,379 --> 00:52:32,862 and it's gonna be BMI of over 100 1052 00:52:32,862 --> 00:52:34,896 and it's gonna be a very dangerous situation for you. 1053 00:52:34,896 --> 00:52:37,103 Okay? OKAY. 1054 00:52:37,103 --> 00:52:39,827 You're only 23, but I don't think 1055 00:52:39,827 --> 00:52:43,793 you're even gonna make it to 30 the way you're going. 1056 00:52:43,793 --> 00:52:47,482 It seems like you have not gotten ahold of your life 1057 00:52:47,482 --> 00:52:50,620 and you don't know what your priorities are at this point. 1058 00:52:50,620 --> 00:52:52,206 And you're not following the diet 1059 00:52:52,206 --> 00:52:54,172 and you're not doing anything 1060 00:52:54,172 --> 00:52:57,275 to get your life changed better, 1061 00:52:57,275 --> 00:52:58,482 and you're just gonna be 1062 00:52:58,482 --> 00:53:00,724 in a very dangerous situation for you. 1063 00:53:00,724 --> 00:53:04,448 I don't think you are realizing that 1064 00:53:04,448 --> 00:53:06,862 and you just... 1065 00:53:06,862 --> 00:53:09,793 Personally, the longer you wait, 1066 00:53:09,793 --> 00:53:12,620 the harder it's gonna be to turn your life around. 1067 00:53:12,620 --> 00:53:15,275 So, this is gonna be a priority for you 1068 00:53:15,275 --> 00:53:16,827 to make these changes and see 1069 00:53:16,827 --> 00:53:20,275 if you can move down to Houston as soon as possible, 1070 00:53:20,275 --> 00:53:23,137 because it doesn't seem that 1071 00:53:23,137 --> 00:53:27,103 you have any support system in Kansas City. 1072 00:53:27,103 --> 00:53:28,448 YES, SIR. 1073 00:53:28,448 --> 00:53:31,965 And there is nothing there for you to continue there. 1074 00:53:31,965 --> 00:53:35,551 So, let's get you moved down here 1075 00:53:35,551 --> 00:53:37,068 as soon as possible. Okay? 1076 00:53:37,068 --> 00:53:39,000 OKAY. Alright. 1077 00:53:39,000 --> 00:53:40,896 So, you need to make those arrangements. 1078 00:53:40,896 --> 00:53:42,517 But in the meantime, 1079 00:53:42,517 --> 00:53:44,758 you stick with the healthy eating habit 1080 00:53:44,758 --> 00:53:47,344 and don't overeat, okay?MM-HMM. 1081 00:53:51,137 --> 00:53:53,034 And do your exercises 1082 00:53:53,034 --> 00:53:56,827 and see if we can get you to move down here. 1083 00:53:56,827 --> 00:53:59,517 OKAY, I CAN TRY. 1084 00:53:59,517 --> 00:54:01,517 And then I want you to come back here 1085 00:54:01,517 --> 00:54:03,482 in one month or two months, 1086 00:54:03,482 --> 00:54:04,896 whichever you feel. 1087 00:54:04,896 --> 00:54:06,517 If it is in one month, 1088 00:54:06,517 --> 00:54:09,655 I expect you to have lost 50 pounds by then. 1089 00:54:09,655 --> 00:54:10,965 And if it's in two months, 1090 00:54:10,965 --> 00:54:14,172 I expect you to lose 80 pounds by then. Okay? 1091 00:54:14,172 --> 00:54:16,586 OKAY. Okay, good. 1092 00:54:16,586 --> 00:54:19,379 In the meantime, you follow the diet 1093 00:54:19,379 --> 00:54:21,068 and try to eat healthy 1094 00:54:21,068 --> 00:54:24,965 and get down to Houston as soon as possible. 1095 00:54:24,965 --> 00:54:28,034 If you need any help or you need anything, 1096 00:54:28,034 --> 00:54:29,517 you can give me a call. Okay? 1097 00:54:29,517 --> 00:54:31,137 OKAY. 1098 00:54:31,137 --> 00:54:33,655 Alright. I look forward seeing you down to Houston 1099 00:54:33,655 --> 00:54:36,551 and see if we can change your life for the better. Okay? 1100 00:54:36,551 --> 00:54:38,137 YES, SIR. Alright, Seana. 1101 00:54:38,137 --> 00:54:40,517 Give me a call if you need anything. Okay? 1102 00:54:40,517 --> 00:54:42,344 OKAY. THANK YOU. 1103 00:54:42,344 --> 00:54:44,620 Yeah. Bye. BYE. 1104 00:54:50,344 --> 00:54:53,241 Seana: THAT WASN'T AS TERRIBLE AS I WAS THINKING. 1105 00:54:53,241 --> 00:54:57,034 I COULD STILL TELL I'M DISAPPOINTING DR. NOW, 1106 00:54:57,034 --> 00:54:59,689 BUT I FEEL LIKE HE WANTS TO HELP ME FIGURE OUT THINGS 1107 00:54:59,689 --> 00:55:02,310 SO I CAN GET MY LIFE TOGETHER AGAIN. 1108 00:55:02,310 --> 00:55:05,827 THE THOUGHT OF MOVING TO HOUSTON ON MY OWN IS TERRIFYING, 1109 00:55:05,827 --> 00:55:08,620 BUT I'M PRETTY MUCH ON MY OWN NOW, 1110 00:55:08,620 --> 00:55:11,137 SO IF I MOVE TO HOUSTON, AT LEAST THERE I'LL HAVE DR. NOW 1111 00:55:11,137 --> 00:55:12,758 TO HELP ME. 1112 00:55:12,758 --> 00:55:15,000 SO, SOMEHOW I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DO IT, 1113 00:55:15,000 --> 00:55:16,482 HOW TO LOSE 50 POUNDS. 1114 00:55:16,482 --> 00:55:18,310 BUT RIGHT NOW, I HAVE NO IDEA 1115 00:55:18,310 --> 00:55:20,758 HOW I'M GONNA MAKE THE MOVE TO HOUSTON ON MY OWN. 1116 00:55:34,793 --> 00:55:37,068 MY MOM IS TAKING ME TO THE AIRPORT TODAY, 1117 00:55:37,068 --> 00:55:40,206 SO I CAN GO TO HOUSTON ON MY OWN AND LIVE THERE. 1118 00:55:40,206 --> 00:55:42,103 SHE SAYS SHE THINKS IT'S A REALLY GOOD IDEA 1119 00:55:42,103 --> 00:55:46,137 THAT I MOVE TO HOUSTON AND TRY TO DO DR. NOW'S PROGRAM. 1120 00:55:46,137 --> 00:55:47,448 AND SHE SAYS SHE'LL GIVE ME A LITTLE BIT 1121 00:55:47,448 --> 00:55:48,793 MORE MONEY TO GET DOWN THERE 1122 00:55:48,793 --> 00:55:52,034 AND TRY AND FIND A PLACE THAT I CAN AFFORD. 1123 00:55:52,034 --> 00:55:54,758 BUT MY MOM IS GONNA HELP ME GET CHECKED IN, 1124 00:55:54,758 --> 00:55:56,310 BUT AFTER THAT, I'M ON MY OWN 1125 00:55:56,310 --> 00:55:58,689 AND THAT'S THE PART I'M SCARED OF. 1126 00:55:58,689 --> 00:55:59,965 THANK YOU. 1127 00:55:59,965 --> 00:56:01,896 ALRIGHT, AND WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOUR BAG. 1128 00:56:01,896 --> 00:56:05,344 THANK YOU. HAVE A GREAT DAY. 1129 00:56:05,344 --> 00:56:07,827 I'M REALLY SCARED TO DO THIS. 1130 00:56:07,827 --> 00:56:10,965 I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A PLANE SINCE I WAS 8 YEARS OLD, 1131 00:56:10,965 --> 00:56:14,103 AND I'VE NEVER TRAVELED ALONE AT THIS SIZE BEFORE. 1132 00:56:14,103 --> 00:56:18,344 SO, I'M JUST STRESSED ABOUT DOING THIS. 1133 00:56:18,344 --> 00:56:20,620 THEY'RE NOT GONNA LET ME COME IN PAST THIS LINE NOW. 1134 00:56:20,620 --> 00:56:22,103 I KNOW. YOU KNOW THAT, RIGHT? 1135 00:56:22,103 --> 00:56:24,931 YEAH. IF YOU DON'T DO THIS, 1136 00:56:24,931 --> 00:56:26,827 THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN. 1137 00:56:26,827 --> 00:56:28,620 I KNOW. 1138 00:56:28,620 --> 00:56:30,482 BUT YOU GOT THIS, I HAVE NO DOUBT. 1139 00:56:30,482 --> 00:56:33,586 AND IT'S GONNA CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER. 1140 00:56:33,586 --> 00:56:35,206 JUST GO GET IT. OKAY. 1141 00:56:35,206 --> 00:56:37,206 I LOVE YOU. LOVE YOU, TOO. 1142 00:56:40,275 --> 00:56:43,034 GO AHEAD. GO GET IT, SEANA. 1143 00:56:43,034 --> 00:56:44,896 I'M TRYING. 1144 00:56:53,482 --> 00:56:55,689 I'M REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW. 1145 00:56:55,689 --> 00:56:57,862 I'M ALREADY STARTING TO HURT A LOT. 1146 00:56:57,862 --> 00:57:01,000 I FEEL LIKE MY LEGS ARE GIVING OUT. 1147 00:57:02,931 --> 00:57:04,551 THIS IS REALLY HARD. 1148 00:57:04,551 --> 00:57:08,379 IT'S MORE ACTIVITY I THINK I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME, 1149 00:57:08,379 --> 00:57:10,551 SO IT'S ALREADY TOO MUCH. 1150 00:57:12,931 --> 00:57:14,448 I'M SO EXHAUSTED, BUT I JUST HOPE 1151 00:57:14,448 --> 00:57:16,551 I DON'T RUN OUT OF ENERGY BEFORE I GET TO THE GATE. 1152 00:57:16,551 --> 00:57:19,241 AND I HOPE THE REST OF THE WAY 1153 00:57:19,241 --> 00:57:22,655 ISN'T GONNA BE TOO HARD OF A WALK. 1154 00:57:22,655 --> 00:57:24,931 I'M STILL REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT GETTING ON THE PLANE 1155 00:57:24,931 --> 00:57:29,103 AND HOW THAT'S GONNA GO. 1156 00:57:29,103 --> 00:57:30,620 I JUST HOPE I DON'T GET STUCK IN THE AISLE 1157 00:57:30,620 --> 00:57:32,965 OR CAN'T FIT IN THE SEAT OR SOMETHING. 1158 00:57:38,344 --> 00:57:42,137 I'M VERY RELIEVED I MADE IT ON. 1159 00:57:42,137 --> 00:57:46,620 I'M REALLY TIRED, BUT I'M EXCITED ABOUT THAT. 1160 00:57:46,620 --> 00:57:48,896 BEING ABLE TO DO THAT WAS MY BIGGEST FEAR. 1161 00:57:54,724 --> 00:57:56,241 I'M FEELING BETTER RIGHT NOW. 1162 00:57:56,241 --> 00:57:58,034 I'M JUST GONNA TRY AND NOT THINK ABOUT ALL OF THE STUFF 1163 00:57:58,034 --> 00:58:02,137 I STILL HAVE TO DO WHEN I GET TO HOUSTON. 1164 00:58:02,137 --> 00:58:03,965 IT ALL OVERWHELMS ME. 1165 00:58:06,103 --> 00:58:09,931 MY MOM GAVE ME MONEY FOR A HOTEL THAT'LL LAST ME A LITTLE BIT. 1166 00:58:09,931 --> 00:58:12,620 I HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT I LOSE THE WEIGHT 1167 00:58:12,620 --> 00:58:14,310 DR. NOW SAYS I HAVE TO LOSE 1168 00:58:14,310 --> 00:58:16,551 BEFORE MY APPOINTMENT IN A MONTH. 1169 00:58:16,551 --> 00:58:19,206 BUT RIGHT NOW, I JUST NEED TO REST. 1170 00:58:19,206 --> 00:58:20,620 AND THEN WHEN I GET TO HOUSTON, 1171 00:58:20,620 --> 00:58:24,793 I'LL WORRY ABOUT IT AND FIGURE IT ALL OUT SOMEHOW. 1172 00:58:45,103 --> 00:58:48,517 Seana: I'VE BEEN HERE IN HOUSTON FOR A MONTH NOW. 1173 00:58:48,517 --> 00:58:51,034 I MOSTLY JUST STAYED IN MY HOTEL ROOM THE WHOLE TIME. 1174 00:58:51,034 --> 00:58:55,758 I HAVEN'T SEEN ANYBODY, SINCE I DON'T KNOW ANYBODY HERE. 1175 00:58:55,758 --> 00:58:57,965 THE ONLY TIME I GO OUT IS TO WALK AROUND THE HOTEL 1176 00:58:57,965 --> 00:59:00,413 FOR EXERCISE OR WALK MY DOG. 1177 00:59:00,413 --> 00:59:02,310 BUT OTHER THAN THAT, 1178 00:59:02,310 --> 00:59:04,379 I DON'T HAVE A CAR OR A LOT OF MONEY, 1179 00:59:04,379 --> 00:59:07,655 SO I'VE JUST BEEN PUTTING MY FOCUS ON DIETING. 1180 00:59:07,655 --> 00:59:11,379 AND I'VE WORKED REALLY HARD ON DR. NOW'S DIET. 1181 00:59:11,379 --> 00:59:12,689 I'M HOPING IT'S BEEN ENOUGH, 1182 00:59:12,689 --> 00:59:15,068 BECAUSE I'VE CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE TO DO THIS. 1183 00:59:18,689 --> 00:59:20,103 I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND A PLACE TO LIVE 1184 00:59:20,103 --> 00:59:21,689 BECAUSE ALL MY ENERGY IS GOING INTO 1185 00:59:21,689 --> 00:59:23,517 WHAT I NEED TO GET MY WEIGHT DOWN TO THE GOAL 1186 00:59:23,517 --> 00:59:25,758 I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE. 1187 00:59:25,758 --> 00:59:27,689 SO, I'M HOPING THAT I'VE FINALLY LOST SOME WEIGHT 1188 00:59:27,689 --> 00:59:29,310 AND DID IT THIS TIME. 1189 00:59:34,068 --> 00:59:36,034 SEANA? 1190 00:59:36,034 --> 00:59:38,724 AT MY LAST WEIGH-IN, I WAS 658, 1191 00:59:38,724 --> 00:59:41,034 AND THE GOAL I HAVE NOW FROM DR. NOW 1192 00:59:41,034 --> 00:59:42,655 IS TO LOSE 50 POUNDS, 1193 00:59:42,655 --> 00:59:45,586 SO MY WEIGHT NUMBER NEEDS TO BE DOWN TO 608 TO BE AT MY GOAL. 1194 00:59:57,724 --> 00:59:59,655 HOLY 1195 01:00:09,379 --> 01:00:11,827 I'VE NEVER LOST ANY TYPE OF WEIGHT LIKE THAT BEFORE, 1196 01:00:11,827 --> 01:00:13,551 SO I FEEL REALLY GOOD. 1197 01:00:13,551 --> 01:00:15,137 REALLY, REALLY GOOD. 1198 01:00:15,137 --> 01:00:17,000 I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. 1199 01:00:17,000 --> 01:00:18,931 I DOUBTED MYSELF A LOT, 1200 01:00:18,931 --> 01:00:20,724 BUT I TRIED MY HARDEST THIS PAST MONTH, 1201 01:00:20,724 --> 01:00:23,000 EVEN THOUGH I WAS ON MY OWN. 1202 01:00:23,000 --> 01:00:26,620 SO IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO SEE MY PROGRESS AND WHAT I DID. 1203 01:00:26,620 --> 01:00:29,241 I HOPE THAT SHOWS DR. NOW WHAT HE WANTS TO SEE, 1204 01:00:29,241 --> 01:00:31,517 AND THAT HE THINKS I'M READY FOR SURGERY NOW. 1205 01:00:36,310 --> 01:00:38,172 HI, SEANA. HI. 1206 01:00:38,172 --> 01:00:40,689 HOW ARE YOU?GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 1207 01:00:40,689 --> 01:00:43,482 ALRIGHT. IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU, 1208 01:00:43,482 --> 01:00:46,517 SO HOW YOU'VE BEEN? 1209 01:00:46,517 --> 01:00:47,862 I'VE BEEN BETTER. 1210 01:00:47,862 --> 01:00:50,551 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, BETTER? 1211 01:00:50,551 --> 01:00:52,689 EXPLAIN TO ME. 1212 01:00:52,689 --> 01:00:53,931 I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING A LOT. 1213 01:00:53,931 --> 01:00:56,137 WITH THE MOVE DOWN HERE? YEAH. 1214 01:00:56,137 --> 01:00:58,275 SO, ARE YOU LIVING DOWN HERE NOW? 1215 01:00:58,275 --> 01:00:59,793 YES, SIR. 1216 01:00:59,793 --> 01:01:01,620 WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW? 1217 01:01:01,620 --> 01:01:04,241 I'M LOOKING FOR A PLACE. THERE'S A COUPLE OF OPTIONS. 1218 01:01:04,241 --> 01:01:06,000 YOU'RE LIVING IN A HOTEL, THEN? 1219 01:01:06,000 --> 01:01:07,241 YES, SIR. 1220 01:01:07,241 --> 01:01:09,448 OKAY, WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE DOWN HERE. 1221 01:01:09,448 --> 01:01:12,413 ARE YOU ABLE TO MANAGE EVERYTHING YOURSELF? 1222 01:01:12,413 --> 01:01:13,862 YES, SIR. 1223 01:01:13,862 --> 01:01:16,344 OKAY. TELL ME ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR WEIGHT, 1224 01:01:16,344 --> 01:01:18,310 BECAUSE YOU LOST SOME WEIGHT SINCE LAST TIME 1225 01:01:18,310 --> 01:01:20,310 I SAW YOU, WHICH IS GOOD. 1226 01:01:20,310 --> 01:01:23,448 BUT YOUR PROGRESS IS NOWHERE NEAR WHERE IT SHOULD BE, 1227 01:01:23,448 --> 01:01:26,448 IF YOU WERE ACTUALLY DOING THE DIET LIKE YOU NEED. 1228 01:01:26,448 --> 01:01:27,793 IT'S BEEN EIGHT MONTHS 1229 01:01:27,793 --> 01:01:30,931 SINCE YOU FIRST CAME DOWN TO SEE ME AND GET HELP, 1230 01:01:30,931 --> 01:01:33,137 AND IN THAT TIME, YOU ONLY LOST 35 POUNDS, 1231 01:01:33,137 --> 01:01:34,689 WHICH IS NOT A LOT. 1232 01:01:34,689 --> 01:01:35,689 NO. 1233 01:01:35,689 --> 01:01:37,655 SO, YOU STILL HAVE A LOT TO SHOW ME 1234 01:01:37,655 --> 01:01:40,344 TO CONVINCE ME YOU'RE READY TO DO THIS. 1235 01:01:40,344 --> 01:01:42,379 I WOULD NORMALLY SAY AT THIS POINT, 1236 01:01:42,379 --> 01:01:46,034 THAT I'M NOT SURE THERE'S ANY MORE WE CAN DO FOR YOU. 1237 01:01:46,034 --> 01:01:48,448 BUT BECAUSE I SEE YOU'RE TRYING A LITTLE RIGHT NOW, 1238 01:01:48,448 --> 01:01:50,344 I'M WILLING TO GIVE YOU TWO MORE MONTHS 1239 01:01:50,344 --> 01:01:53,172 TO SHOW ME YOU CAN LOSE 80 POUNDS, OKAY? 1240 01:01:53,172 --> 01:01:54,482 OKAY, THANK YOU. 1241 01:01:54,482 --> 01:01:56,517 BUT I WANT YOU TO START THERAPY TO SEE 1242 01:01:56,517 --> 01:01:59,827 IF THEY CAN HELP YOU START TO WAKE UP AND DO WHAT YOU NEED 1243 01:01:59,827 --> 01:02:03,137 AND TO HELP MOTIVATE YOU TO START MAKING BETTER CHOICES 1244 01:02:03,137 --> 01:02:06,000 AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR SITUATION 1245 01:02:06,000 --> 01:02:08,448 BEFORE THINGS GET WORSE FOR YOU, OKAY? 1246 01:02:08,448 --> 01:02:09,724 OKAY. 1247 01:02:09,724 --> 01:02:11,206 AND THEN, IN TWO MONTHS, 1248 01:02:11,206 --> 01:02:13,689 I WANT YOU TO LOSE 80 POUNDS, OKAY? 1249 01:02:13,689 --> 01:02:14,896 YES, SIR. 1250 01:02:14,896 --> 01:02:17,034 BUT YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF CHANCES, SEANA. 1251 01:02:17,034 --> 01:02:19,379 SO, IT'S TIME TO DO BETTER.YES, SIR. 1252 01:02:19,379 --> 01:02:22,137 YOU STILL HAVE THE DIET, RIGHT?I DO. 1253 01:02:22,137 --> 01:02:24,862 OKAY, I'LL GIVE YOU ANOTHER JUST IN CASE. 1254 01:02:24,862 --> 01:02:28,103 AND I'LL ALSO GIVE YOU ANOTHER COPY OF THE EXERCISES. 1255 01:02:28,103 --> 01:02:31,758 AND YOU'RE GONNA START DOING YOUR EXERCISES, TOO. 1256 01:02:31,758 --> 01:02:35,896 AND TRY TO DO SOME EXERCISE ON DAILY BASIS, OKAY? 1257 01:02:35,896 --> 01:02:38,724 YES, SIR. OKAY. ANY QUESTIONS? 1258 01:02:38,724 --> 01:02:40,586 NO, SIR. ALRIGHT. 1259 01:02:40,586 --> 01:02:43,655 SO, WE HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO TO GET YOU ON A TRACK 1260 01:02:43,655 --> 01:02:46,689 AND GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHAT TO DO AND NOT TO, OKAY? 1261 01:02:46,689 --> 01:02:48,137 YES, SIR. 1262 01:02:48,137 --> 01:02:51,103 ALRIGHT, WELL, I'M GLAD TO SEE YOU BACK DOWN HERE. 1263 01:02:51,103 --> 01:02:53,379 I THOUGHT YOU WOULD NEVER MAKE IT DOWN HERE, 1264 01:02:53,379 --> 01:02:55,586 BUT I'M GLAD YOU FINALLY DID, OKAY? 1265 01:02:55,586 --> 01:02:57,241 YES, SIR. 1266 01:02:57,241 --> 01:02:58,724 ALRIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1267 01:02:58,724 --> 01:03:00,344 THANK YOU. 1268 01:03:07,413 --> 01:03:08,896 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M GLAD TO SEE 1269 01:03:08,896 --> 01:03:10,724 SEANA HAD SOME WEIGHT LOSS IN THIS TIME, 1270 01:03:10,724 --> 01:03:13,137 AND THAT SHE'S MOVED DOWN HERE TO HOUSTON 1271 01:03:13,137 --> 01:03:16,482 SINCE SHE LOST HER SUPPORT SYSTEM BACK HOME. 1272 01:03:16,482 --> 01:03:19,551 BUT HER PROGRESS IS STILL FAR AWAY FROM WHERE IT SHOULD BE, 1273 01:03:19,551 --> 01:03:22,379 SO SHE STILL NOWHERE CLOSE TO SHOWING ME 1274 01:03:22,379 --> 01:03:26,310 THAT SHE'S READY FOR ANY BIG STEP LIKE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1275 01:03:26,310 --> 01:03:28,724 BUT NOW THAT SHE'S HERE IN HOUSTON, 1276 01:03:28,724 --> 01:03:30,655 WE'LL START HER GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY, 1277 01:03:30,655 --> 01:03:33,827 TO SEE IF THEY CAN HELP WORK WITH HER 1278 01:03:33,827 --> 01:03:35,827 TO HELP GET HER MORE MOTIVATED, 1279 01:03:35,827 --> 01:03:38,931 TO START TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER SITUATION 1280 01:03:38,931 --> 01:03:41,965 BEFORE SHE GETS ANY WORSE AND ENDS UP IN THE SITUATION 1281 01:03:41,965 --> 01:03:43,965 WHERE WE ARE OUT OF OPTIONS WITH HER 1282 01:03:43,965 --> 01:03:46,275 AND UNABLE TO HELP HER ANYMORE. 1283 01:03:46,275 --> 01:03:48,448 BECAUSE SHE COULD VERY EASILY 1284 01:03:48,448 --> 01:03:51,206 AND VERY QUICKLY END UP IN THAT PLACE 1285 01:03:51,206 --> 01:03:54,724 IF SHE DOESN'T START DOING MORE OF WHAT SHE NEEDS SOON. 1286 01:03:56,275 --> 01:03:58,310 Seana: I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED AND SAD 1287 01:03:58,310 --> 01:04:01,172 THAT DR. NOW DIDN'T SEEM PROUDER OF ME LIKE I WAS HOPING, 1288 01:04:01,172 --> 01:04:02,793 AND THAT HE STILL WANTS ME TO SHOW HIM MORE 1289 01:04:02,793 --> 01:04:05,275 BEFORE I CAN GET SURGERY. 1290 01:04:05,275 --> 01:04:06,862 BUT SEEING WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF TODAY 1291 01:04:06,862 --> 01:04:09,482 MAKES ME WANT TO MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS, 1292 01:04:09,482 --> 01:04:11,137 SO I'LL KEEP WORKING HARD TO SHOW HIM 1293 01:04:11,137 --> 01:04:13,517 I CAN DO EVEN BETTER NEXT TIME 1294 01:04:13,517 --> 01:04:15,517 AND FINALLY GET MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1295 01:04:24,655 --> 01:04:27,379 I'M GOING TO THE THERAPY DR. NOW SET UP. 1296 01:04:27,379 --> 01:04:29,620 IT'S SUPPOSED TO HELP ME LOSE MORE WEIGHT, 1297 01:04:29,620 --> 01:04:32,206 EVEN THOUGH I LOST A LOT LAST TIME. 1298 01:04:32,206 --> 01:04:35,482 BUT I'VE HAD A LOT OF THERAPY IN MY LIFE IN THE HOSPITALS, 1299 01:04:35,482 --> 01:04:38,448 SO I THINK I KIND OF KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 1300 01:04:38,448 --> 01:04:41,103 USUALLY IT'S GOOD BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE EVERY TIME 1301 01:04:41,103 --> 01:04:43,551 I GET THERAPY, I GET SOMETHING HELPFUL OUT OF IT. 1302 01:04:43,551 --> 01:04:45,931 BUT IT'S STILL NOT AN EASY PROCESS, 1303 01:04:45,931 --> 01:04:48,068 AND THERE ARE THINGS I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT, 1304 01:04:48,068 --> 01:04:49,068 BECAUSE I DON'T NEED TO. 1305 01:04:49,068 --> 01:04:51,241 AND IF I HAVE TO, IT JUST UPSETS ME. 1306 01:04:51,241 --> 01:04:53,931 BUT WE'LL JUST SEE HOW IT GOES, I GUESS. 1307 01:04:53,931 --> 01:04:55,068 ARE YOU SEANA? HI. 1308 01:04:55,068 --> 01:04:57,689 I'M DR. PARADISE, COME ON IN. 1309 01:04:57,689 --> 01:05:01,482 HAVE A SEAT ON THE COUCH OVER HERE. HAVE A SEAT. 1310 01:05:06,827 --> 01:05:09,275 HI, THERE. WELCOME. 1311 01:05:09,275 --> 01:05:11,793 THANK YOU.I'M GLAD YOU MADE IT IN. 1312 01:05:11,793 --> 01:05:13,517 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF. 1313 01:05:13,517 --> 01:05:15,310 WHAT WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD LIKE? 1314 01:05:15,310 --> 01:05:17,620 WITH MY MOM, IT WAS REALLY GOOD. 1315 01:05:17,620 --> 01:05:19,344 WITH MY DAD, NOT SO GOOD. 1316 01:05:19,344 --> 01:05:22,000 OKAY, TELL ME ABOUT YOUR HISTORY WITH YOUR MOM AND YOUR DAD. 1317 01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:23,793 THEY WERE TOGETHER WHEN YOU WERE BORN? 1318 01:05:23,793 --> 01:05:26,793 WHEN I WAS BORN, YES, UNTIL I WAS 4. 1319 01:05:26,793 --> 01:05:31,000 DO YOU KNOW WHAT PULLED YOUR PARENTS APART? 1320 01:05:31,000 --> 01:05:32,482 UM, MY DAD'S ABUSIVENESS. 1321 01:05:32,482 --> 01:05:33,586 OKAY. 1322 01:05:33,586 --> 01:05:36,275 AND HIM AND HER JUST NOT GETTING ALONG. 1323 01:05:36,275 --> 01:05:38,275 DO YOU KNOW IF HE WAS ABUSIVE TO YOU? 1324 01:05:38,275 --> 01:05:41,172 OH, HE WAS. REALLY MENTAL ABUSIVE. 1325 01:05:41,172 --> 01:05:42,896 AND PHYSICALLY SOMETIMES. 1326 01:05:42,896 --> 01:05:45,068 LET'S TALK ABOUT THE MENTAL PART. 1327 01:05:45,068 --> 01:05:46,689 HE MADE FUN OF YOU, HE SAID MEAN THINGS? 1328 01:05:46,689 --> 01:05:48,000 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 1329 01:05:48,000 --> 01:05:50,034 HE MADE FUN OF MY WEIGHT A LOT. 1330 01:05:50,034 --> 01:05:52,344 SO, YOUR DAD GAVE YOU A HARD TIME ABOUT THAT. 1331 01:05:52,344 --> 01:05:53,586 YEAH. 1332 01:05:53,586 --> 01:05:54,896 ONE OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENS, 1333 01:05:54,896 --> 01:05:58,482 ESPECIALLY WHEN A YOUNG PERSON IS ABUSED, 1334 01:05:58,482 --> 01:06:00,827 IS THEY TEND TO THINK IT'S THEIR FAULT. 1335 01:06:00,827 --> 01:06:02,413 MY GUESS IS, DID YOU THINK YOU DESERVED IT 1336 01:06:02,413 --> 01:06:04,551 BECAUSE YOU WERE OVERWEIGHT? 1337 01:06:04,551 --> 01:06:07,172 YEAH. YEAH, OKAY. 1338 01:06:07,172 --> 01:06:09,413 DOES HE EVER APOLOGIZE TO YOU? 1339 01:06:09,413 --> 01:06:10,517 NOT REALLY. 1340 01:06:10,517 --> 01:06:11,758 OKAY. 1341 01:06:11,758 --> 01:06:14,000 HOW ARE YOU FEELING RIGHT NOW? 1342 01:06:14,000 --> 01:06:16,655 LIKE... 1343 01:06:16,655 --> 01:06:19,655 I JUST DON'T WANT TO TALK ANYMORE. 1344 01:06:19,655 --> 01:06:21,793 YEAH, AND DOING THIS, 1345 01:06:21,793 --> 01:06:26,137 IT'S A LITTLE BIT LIKE GETTING A DEEP-TISSUE MASSAGE. 1346 01:06:26,137 --> 01:06:30,724 WE'RE WORKING THROUGH KNOTS, AND IT'S GONNA HURT. 1347 01:06:30,724 --> 01:06:32,517 BUT THE IDEA IS AFTERWARDS, YOU'RE GONNA BE ABLE 1348 01:06:32,517 --> 01:06:34,724 TO MOVE MORE. SO IT'S NORMAL, 1349 01:06:34,724 --> 01:06:39,275 BUT I THINK YOU'RE PROTECTED AGAINST SOME OF THIS STUFF, 1350 01:06:39,275 --> 01:06:43,931 BUT WHEN WE PUSH THROUGH IT, IT'S GONNA GIVE YOU ACCESS 1351 01:06:43,931 --> 01:06:46,000 TO STUFF THAT YOU DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. 1352 01:06:46,000 --> 01:06:47,689 I JUST WANT TO GO EAT 1353 01:06:47,689 --> 01:06:49,379 A GIANT FRICKIN' PIZZA RIGHT NOW. 1354 01:06:49,379 --> 01:06:50,655 THAT'S WHAT YOU FEEL LIKE DOING? 1355 01:06:50,655 --> 01:06:52,827 YEAH, HONESTLY. 1356 01:06:52,827 --> 01:06:55,344 OKAY. BUT YOU GOT TO STAY ON THE EATING PLAN 1357 01:06:55,344 --> 01:06:56,965 IF YOU'RE GONNA STAY IN THE PROGRAM 1358 01:06:56,965 --> 01:06:59,000 AND REACH THE NEXT LEVEL, 1359 01:06:59,000 --> 01:07:00,482 WHICH IS HAVING THE SURGERY, RIGHT? 1360 01:07:00,482 --> 01:07:01,931 YEAH. SO, YOU SHOULD BE DOING 1361 01:07:01,931 --> 01:07:04,172 EVERYTHING YOU CAN TO STAY ON THE DIET. 1362 01:07:04,172 --> 01:07:08,310 SO, LET'S COME UP WITH A DIFFERENT STRATEGY. 1363 01:07:08,310 --> 01:07:10,482 WHAT COULD YOU DO? 1364 01:07:10,482 --> 01:07:12,034 I HAVE NO IDEA. 1365 01:07:12,034 --> 01:07:15,034 YOU COULD TAKE A WALK. 1366 01:07:15,034 --> 01:07:17,344 IF YOU WERE HOME, YOU COULD DO SOME OF YOUR EXERCISES 1367 01:07:17,344 --> 01:07:19,034 WITH YOUR WEIGHTS AND STUFF, RIGHT? 1368 01:07:19,034 --> 01:07:20,655 SO YOU COULD DO SOMETHING PHYSICAL. 1369 01:07:20,655 --> 01:07:21,862 WHAT DO YOU ENJOY DOING? 1370 01:07:21,862 --> 01:07:23,241 I LIKE SWIMMING. 1371 01:07:23,241 --> 01:07:24,448 SO, THAT COULD BE A GOAL, 1372 01:07:24,448 --> 01:07:26,517 IS TO FIGURE OUT SOME PLACE TO GO SWIMMING. 1373 01:07:26,517 --> 01:07:27,689 YEAH. 1374 01:07:27,689 --> 01:07:29,793 YEAH. AND THEN, THE LAST THING, 1375 01:07:29,793 --> 01:07:32,793 AND THIS IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE, IS THE LONG-TERM STUFF. 1376 01:07:32,793 --> 01:07:34,517 I THINK IT WOULD HELP YOU TO KEEP TALKING 1377 01:07:34,517 --> 01:07:37,586 ABOUT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR FAMILY, 1378 01:07:37,586 --> 01:07:41,344 AND THE EMOTIONAL EATING, TO GET AT THAT, 1379 01:07:41,344 --> 01:07:45,137 SO THAT WE CAN REWRITE YOUR UNDERSTANDING OF THAT, 1380 01:07:45,137 --> 01:07:47,793 SO THAT YOU'RE NOT SO VULNERABLE TO IT. 1381 01:07:47,793 --> 01:07:48,793 YEAH. 1382 01:07:48,793 --> 01:07:50,103 OKAY? OKAY. 1383 01:07:50,103 --> 01:07:52,551 ARE YOU FEELING OKAY ABOUT WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT? 1384 01:07:52,551 --> 01:07:54,206 YEAH. OKAY. SO SEANA, 1385 01:07:54,206 --> 01:07:56,965 I NEED YOU TO KEEP TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF. 1386 01:07:56,965 --> 01:07:59,689 STAYING PHYSICALLY ACTIVE, STAYING ON THE DIET, 1387 01:07:59,689 --> 01:08:01,241 IT'S ALL GONNA GO TOGETHER. 1388 01:08:01,241 --> 01:08:03,551 OKAY. THANK YOU. 1389 01:08:03,551 --> 01:08:05,448 I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR HOW WELL YOU'RE DOING. 1390 01:08:08,689 --> 01:08:10,310 I'LL GET THIS DOOR FOR YOU. 1391 01:08:10,310 --> 01:08:11,482 THANK YOU. 1392 01:08:11,482 --> 01:08:13,000 Seana: THERE'S A LOT THAT I FEEL BAD ABOUT, 1393 01:08:13,000 --> 01:08:15,551 AND IT'S STUFF THAT WILL HURT ME 1394 01:08:15,551 --> 01:08:18,000 THAT I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT. 1395 01:08:18,000 --> 01:08:19,965 AND DEALING WITH THE HARD STUFF 1396 01:08:19,965 --> 01:08:22,827 ENDS UP MAKING ME WANT TO EAT EVEN MORE, 1397 01:08:22,827 --> 01:08:24,655 SO I'M NOT SURE WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 1398 01:08:42,793 --> 01:08:45,448 Seana: SINCE SEEING DR. PARADISE AND TALKING TO HIM, 1399 01:08:45,448 --> 01:08:48,068 I'VE TRIED TO PUSH MYSELF TO WORK ON THINGS 1400 01:08:48,068 --> 01:08:50,586 LIKE HE SAID I SHOULD. 1401 01:08:50,586 --> 01:08:52,517 BUT I DON'T THINK I'M MAKING MUCH PROGRESS WITH IT 1402 01:08:52,517 --> 01:08:54,724 LIKE HE WANTS, 1403 01:08:54,724 --> 01:08:57,793 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M STRUGGLING EVEN MORE RIGHT NOW. 1404 01:08:57,793 --> 01:08:59,379 BECAUSE WHEN THINGS COME IN MY MIND 1405 01:08:59,379 --> 01:09:00,793 THAT I DON'T WANT IN MY MIND, 1406 01:09:00,793 --> 01:09:04,068 THEN I TRY TO USE SOMETHING THAT'S NOT FOOD TO DEAL WITH IT. 1407 01:09:04,068 --> 01:09:06,551 AFTERWARDS, IT'S LIKE IT'S WORSE. 1408 01:09:06,551 --> 01:09:08,862 MY CRAVINGS ARE STRONGER. 1409 01:09:08,862 --> 01:09:12,655 KIND OF LIKE MY CRAVINGS PUNISH ME FOR TRYING THAT. 1410 01:09:12,655 --> 01:09:15,137 I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT THINGS MY DAD HAS SAID TO ME, 1411 01:09:15,137 --> 01:09:17,344 I'M TRYING TO GO FOR A WALK TO FORGET. 1412 01:09:20,310 --> 01:09:22,034 BUT THEN AFTER THAT, ALL I REALLY WANT TO DO 1413 01:09:22,034 --> 01:09:23,689 IS EAT AS MUCH AS I CAN. 1414 01:09:23,689 --> 01:09:25,482 AND THE SNACK STATION HERE AT THE HOTEL 1415 01:09:25,482 --> 01:09:28,103 LETS YOU GET THINGS AND CHARGE THEM TO THE ROOM, 1416 01:09:28,103 --> 01:09:30,758 SO THAT PLACE HAS BECOME MY BIGGEST TEMPTATION. 1417 01:09:35,689 --> 01:09:38,310 I'M TRYING TO FIND WAYS TO COPE THAT AREN'T EATING, 1418 01:09:38,310 --> 01:09:40,137 BUT THIS IS JUST HARD. 1419 01:09:44,137 --> 01:09:48,103 PART OF ME WISHES I DIDN'T START THIS PROCESS, 1420 01:09:48,103 --> 01:09:51,379 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST BLOWING UP IN MY FACE. 1421 01:09:59,655 --> 01:10:01,379 IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO BACK TO DR. NOW, 1422 01:10:01,379 --> 01:10:04,137 TO SEE HOW I DID WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS. 1423 01:10:04,137 --> 01:10:06,827 I'M HOPING I AT LEAST DID AS WELL AS LAST TIME. 1424 01:10:06,827 --> 01:10:09,275 I WAS REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF FOR LOSING THAT MUCH. 1425 01:10:09,275 --> 01:10:12,275 EVEN THOUGH I KNOW DR. NOW WANTED ME TO LOSE MORE, 1426 01:10:12,275 --> 01:10:14,793 BUT IT'S BEEN HARDER THIS TIME WITH THE THERAPY STUFF, 1427 01:10:14,793 --> 01:10:17,379 AND I LOST THE DIET AGAIN. 1428 01:10:17,379 --> 01:10:20,482 SO I'M DOING IT ALL OFF MEMORY FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS. 1429 01:10:22,172 --> 01:10:24,448 SEANA? 1430 01:10:24,448 --> 01:10:25,758 I'M REALLY HOPING DR. NOW 1431 01:10:25,758 --> 01:10:28,482 STARTS TO SEE HOW HARD I'M TRYING, 1432 01:10:28,482 --> 01:10:31,482 BECAUSE I REALLY WANT THIS, AND I NEED IT, TOO. 1433 01:10:42,655 --> 01:10:45,517 THAT'S DISAPPOINTING. 1434 01:10:45,517 --> 01:10:47,137 I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, 1435 01:10:47,137 --> 01:10:50,068 EXCEPT FOR THAT I THINK IT WAS A MISTAKE PUSHING MYSELF TO TRY 1436 01:10:50,068 --> 01:10:52,206 AND FIND OTHER WAYS TO COPE WITH THINGS. 1437 01:10:54,275 --> 01:10:56,965 I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN, AND I'M FRUSTRATED, 1438 01:10:56,965 --> 01:10:59,517 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I WAS GOING IN A GOOD DIRECTION, 1439 01:10:59,517 --> 01:11:01,931 AND ALL THAT GOT MESSED UP. 1440 01:11:01,931 --> 01:11:06,137 AND NOW DR. NOW ISN'T GOING TO BE HAPPY WITH ME AGAIN. 1441 01:11:06,137 --> 01:11:08,586 SO THIS APPOINTMENT PROBABLY WON'T GO WELL. 1442 01:11:15,586 --> 01:11:17,448 HEY, SEANA. HI. 1443 01:11:17,448 --> 01:11:20,517 HOW ARE YOU?GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 1444 01:11:20,517 --> 01:11:23,965 ALRIGHT. HOW ARE YOU GETTING ALONG? 1445 01:11:23,965 --> 01:11:25,758 GOOD. 1446 01:11:25,758 --> 01:11:28,586 OKAY. WELL, YOU GAINED 13 POUNDS THIS TIME, 1447 01:11:28,586 --> 01:11:32,827 SO HOW IS YOUR EATING HABIT COMING ALONG? 1448 01:11:32,827 --> 01:11:36,655 I FOUND SOME MORE DIFFERENT WAYS TO... 1449 01:11:36,655 --> 01:11:38,172 I FOUND SOME MIXTURES OF FOOD 1450 01:11:38,172 --> 01:11:41,586 THAT I LIKE FROM YOUR DIET, YOU KNOW? 1451 01:11:41,586 --> 01:11:47,482 LIKE TUNA WRAPPED IN LETTUCE. 1452 01:11:47,482 --> 01:11:49,482 MM-HMM. IT'S REALLY GOOD. 1453 01:11:49,482 --> 01:11:50,827 WELL, I'M SURE IT IS. 1454 01:11:50,827 --> 01:11:53,482 BUT THE ISSUE IS, THAT'S NOT THE ONLY KIND OF FOOD 1455 01:11:53,482 --> 01:11:56,896 YOU'VE BEEN EATING THE PAST TWO MONTHS, BECAUSE YOU GAINED. 1456 01:11:56,896 --> 01:12:01,344 SO, DO YOU FEEL PSYCHOTHERAPY HELPING AT ALL? 1457 01:12:01,344 --> 01:12:02,448 YEAH, I GUESS. 1458 01:12:02,448 --> 01:12:03,689 YOU GUESS? 1459 01:12:03,689 --> 01:12:05,137 YEAH. 1460 01:12:05,137 --> 01:12:06,896 THEN WHY DO YOU THINK YOU DID WORSE THIS TIME 1461 01:12:06,896 --> 01:12:09,758 THAN LAST TIME? 1462 01:12:09,758 --> 01:12:11,172 I DON'T KNOW. 1463 01:12:11,172 --> 01:12:14,034 DO YOU STILL HAVE THE DIET OR DID YOU LOSE IT AGAIN? 1464 01:12:14,034 --> 01:12:16,275 HONESTLY, I LOST IT AGAIN. 1465 01:12:16,275 --> 01:12:17,689 ARE YOU SERIOUS? 1466 01:12:17,689 --> 01:12:18,758 YES, SIR. 1467 01:12:18,758 --> 01:12:21,068 SO, WE NEED TO GIVE YOU ANOTHER COPY? 1468 01:12:21,068 --> 01:12:22,655 COULD YOU? 1469 01:12:22,655 --> 01:12:24,551 WE GIVE YOU ANOTHER COPY, AND YOU'LL READ IT? 1470 01:12:24,551 --> 01:12:25,586 YES, SIR. 1471 01:12:25,586 --> 01:12:26,896 AT THIS POINT, I DOUBT THAT, 1472 01:12:26,896 --> 01:12:30,241 BECAUSE THIS WILL BE THE FOURTH COPY WE HAVE GIVEN YOU. 1473 01:12:30,241 --> 01:12:32,034 WHAT ABOUT YOUR EXERCISES? 1474 01:12:32,034 --> 01:12:34,758 SO YOU NEED ANOTHER COPY OF THOSE, TOO? 1475 01:12:34,758 --> 01:12:36,103 YES, SIR. 1476 01:12:36,103 --> 01:12:38,241 ALRIGHT. HAVE YOU HAD ANY ACTIVITY 1477 01:12:38,241 --> 01:12:39,689 OVER THE LAST TWO MONTHS? 1478 01:12:39,689 --> 01:12:41,965 WHAT'S THAT? HMM? 1479 01:12:41,965 --> 01:12:44,172 ACTIVITY? MM-HMM. 1480 01:12:44,172 --> 01:12:47,551 ARE YOU DOING ANY WALKING, EXERCISING? 1481 01:12:47,551 --> 01:12:50,517 I WALKED THROUGH THE HALLWAYS A LITTLE, YEAH. 1482 01:12:50,517 --> 01:12:54,068 OKAY. SO WHAT DO YOU DO ALL DAY? 1483 01:12:54,068 --> 01:12:58,137 PLAY WITH MY DOG IN THE ROOM, REALLY. 1484 01:12:58,137 --> 01:12:59,620 YOU AND YOUR DOG, HUH? 1485 01:12:59,620 --> 01:13:01,275 YEAH. 1486 01:13:01,275 --> 01:13:03,862 SO, NO EXERCISE? 1487 01:13:03,862 --> 01:13:06,862 I TOOK HER OUT SOMETIMES. 1488 01:13:06,862 --> 01:13:10,689 I WALK HER OUT, AND THEN I WALK HER BACK IN. 1489 01:13:10,689 --> 01:13:13,241 THE BEST I CAN TELL YOU AT THIS POINT, SEANA, 1490 01:13:13,241 --> 01:13:15,655 IS TO KEEP WORKING WITH PSYCHOTHERAPY. 1491 01:13:15,655 --> 01:13:17,551 KEEP GOING TO THAT. 1492 01:13:17,551 --> 01:13:19,413 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU THOSE PAPERS AGAIN, 1493 01:13:19,413 --> 01:13:22,172 BUT MAKE SURE YOU HOLD ON TO THE INFORMATION 1494 01:13:22,172 --> 01:13:23,896 WE'VE GIVEN YOU THIS TIME. 1495 01:13:23,896 --> 01:13:26,034 FOLLOW THE DIET AND EXERCISES 1496 01:13:26,034 --> 01:13:29,310 AND LOSE 80 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT 2 MONTHS. 1497 01:13:29,310 --> 01:13:31,000 SO, I'M GONNA GET YOU THE STUFF, 1498 01:13:31,000 --> 01:13:36,379 AND YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE AT LEAST 10 POUND A WEEK. 1499 01:13:36,379 --> 01:13:38,241 AND THIS IS SOMETHING 1500 01:13:38,241 --> 01:13:41,724 THAT YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TRY TO EAT HEALTHY, OKAY? 1501 01:13:41,724 --> 01:13:42,965 YES, SIR. 1502 01:13:42,965 --> 01:13:44,896 BUT IF YOU DON'T DO WHAT YOU NEED THIS TIME, 1503 01:13:44,896 --> 01:13:46,310 I THINK IT WILL BE CLEAR 1504 01:13:46,310 --> 01:13:49,310 THAT YOU'RE NOT REALLY INTERESTED IN DOING THIS. 1505 01:13:49,310 --> 01:13:52,758 INSTEAD, YOU WANT SOMEONE ELSE TO DO ALL THE WORK FOR YOU. 1506 01:13:52,758 --> 01:13:55,620 AND IF WE GET TO THAT POINT, THEN THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU. 1507 01:13:55,620 --> 01:13:57,275 YOU WON'T BE DOING MY PROGRAM 1508 01:13:57,275 --> 01:13:59,034 OR GETTING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1509 01:13:59,034 --> 01:14:01,241 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? YES, SIR. 1510 01:14:01,241 --> 01:14:03,310 ALRIGHT. ANY OTHER QUESTIONS? 1511 01:14:03,310 --> 01:14:04,620 NO, SIR. 1512 01:14:04,620 --> 01:14:07,586 ALRIGHT, SEANA, TRY TO DO BETTER WITH YOUR DIET 1513 01:14:07,586 --> 01:14:08,931 AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT. 1514 01:14:08,931 --> 01:14:13,275 AND IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING THAT YOU NEED, GIVE US A CALL. 1515 01:14:13,275 --> 01:14:15,344 AND THEN WE'LL SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING, OKAY? 1516 01:14:15,344 --> 01:14:16,931 YES, SIR. ALRIGHT. 1517 01:14:23,517 --> 01:14:27,724 AT THIS POINT, I'M NOT SURE WHAT MORE WE CAN DO FOR SEANA. 1518 01:14:27,724 --> 01:14:31,034 I THINK THE CONCERNS I'VE HAD FROM THE BEGINNING WITH HER, 1519 01:14:31,034 --> 01:14:33,931 THAT SHE'S NOT REALLY THE ONE WHO WANTS TO DO THIS, 1520 01:14:33,931 --> 01:14:37,344 AND THAT HER MOTIVATION TO TRY AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1521 01:14:37,344 --> 01:14:39,310 MAY BE TO MAKE HER MOM HAPPY 1522 01:14:39,310 --> 01:14:43,103 ARE THE PRIMARY ISSUES WE ARE DEALING WITH, WITH HER. 1523 01:14:43,103 --> 01:14:47,000 THEN IT'S ALSO A LEVEL OF IMMATURITY WE HAVE WITH HER, 1524 01:14:47,000 --> 01:14:49,103 WHERE SHE EXPECTS SOMEONE ELSE TO COME IN 1525 01:14:49,103 --> 01:14:51,448 AND CLEAN UP THE MESS OF HER LIFE FOR HER, 1526 01:14:51,448 --> 01:14:52,793 INSTEAD OF MAKING THE CHOICES 1527 01:14:52,793 --> 01:14:54,758 SHE NEEDS TO PUT IN THE HARD WORK 1528 01:14:54,758 --> 01:14:58,103 TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER LIFE. 1529 01:14:58,103 --> 01:15:01,172 BUT WE ARE GIVING HER EVERY TOOL AND CHANCE WE CAN 1530 01:15:01,172 --> 01:15:03,137 TO HELP HER DO THIS. 1531 01:15:03,137 --> 01:15:06,034 HOPEFULLY PSYCHOTHERAPY WILL START TO GET THROUGH 1532 01:15:06,034 --> 01:15:07,344 TO HER SOON, 1533 01:15:07,344 --> 01:15:10,241 TO HELP HER START MAKING THE CHOICES SHE NEEDS NOW 1534 01:15:10,241 --> 01:15:11,862 BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE. 1535 01:15:14,482 --> 01:15:16,310 Seana: I'LL TRY HARDER, BUT I'M FRUSTRATED 1536 01:15:16,310 --> 01:15:19,793 BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE THIS IS MY FAULT. 1537 01:15:19,793 --> 01:15:23,517 I THINK THE THERAPY MESSED ME UP SOME. 1538 01:15:23,517 --> 01:15:26,931 I'M SO SCARED I'M GONNA FAIL AND MESS THIS UP. 1539 01:15:26,931 --> 01:15:29,310 AND IT'S TERRIFYING TO HEAR DR. NOW SAY 1540 01:15:29,310 --> 01:15:31,551 I ONLY HAVE ONE CHANCE LEFT, 1541 01:15:31,551 --> 01:15:32,793 BECAUSE WITHOUT THIS, I'M DOOMED, 1542 01:15:32,793 --> 01:15:34,448 AND I'M GONNA DIE SOON. 1543 01:15:56,034 --> 01:15:58,206 Seana: SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 1544 01:15:58,206 --> 01:16:00,758 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO BETTER. 1545 01:16:00,758 --> 01:16:02,724 I HAD ANOTHER SESSION WITH DR. PARADISE, 1546 01:16:02,724 --> 01:16:06,620 AND I TOLD HIM I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS. 1547 01:16:06,620 --> 01:16:08,655 AND I FEEL LIKE IF I HAVE TO DO THAT, 1548 01:16:08,655 --> 01:16:12,034 IT JUST MAKES IT WORSE FOR ME. 1549 01:16:12,034 --> 01:16:16,241 SO FOR NOW, HE SAYS WE'LL FOCUS ON SMALL STEPS. 1550 01:16:16,241 --> 01:16:19,172 ONE OF THE OTHER THINGS HE REMINDED ME OF 1551 01:16:19,172 --> 01:16:21,965 IS FOCUSING ON KEEPING A CLEAN ENVIRONMENT THAT'S IN ORDER, 1552 01:16:21,965 --> 01:16:25,827 IF I WANT MY LIFE TO BE IN ORDER. 1553 01:16:25,827 --> 01:16:27,896 SO I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT OF CLEANING. 1554 01:16:27,896 --> 01:16:30,758 BUT I FEEL LIKE A LOT OF TIMES DOING THAT, 1555 01:16:30,758 --> 01:16:34,000 I START TO WORRY ABOUT STAYING DISTRACTED, 1556 01:16:34,000 --> 01:16:36,827 AND THEN I ALMOST START TO PANIC. 1557 01:16:36,827 --> 01:16:41,068 AND THAT ALL MAKES ME STRUGGLE AND WANT TO EAT EVEN MORE. 1558 01:16:41,068 --> 01:16:43,724 SO THIS ISN'T EASY, BUT I'M TRYING REALLY HARD. 1559 01:17:00,310 --> 01:17:04,000 BUT I'M KEEPING DR. NOW'S DIET WITH ME SO I DON'T LOSE IT... 1560 01:17:06,448 --> 01:17:10,793 ...TO MAKE SURE I'M DOING WHAT I CAN TO ONLY EAT WHAT'S ON IT. 1561 01:17:10,793 --> 01:17:13,344 I JUST NEED EVERYTHING I'M DOING TO BE ENOUGH. 1562 01:17:25,586 --> 01:17:28,413 I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE, AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS, 1563 01:17:28,413 --> 01:17:29,965 BECAUSE WHAT HAPPENS TODAY WILL BE BIG, 1564 01:17:29,965 --> 01:17:32,758 SINCE DR. NOW TOLD ME I'M PRETTY MUCH OUT OF CHANCES. 1565 01:17:32,758 --> 01:17:35,137 SO I HAVE TO HIT MY GOAL TODAY OR ELSE. 1566 01:17:40,827 --> 01:17:42,862 SEANA? 1567 01:17:42,862 --> 01:17:44,827 I WAS AT 636 LAST TIME, 1568 01:17:44,827 --> 01:17:47,586 AND MY GOAL IS STILL TO LOSE 80 POUNDS. 1569 01:17:47,586 --> 01:17:49,620 I HAVE TO BE AT 556. 1570 01:18:04,827 --> 01:18:06,689 I THINK I FEEL NUMB. 1571 01:18:13,620 --> 01:18:16,827 I'M JUST IN SHOCK, AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK. 1572 01:18:16,827 --> 01:18:18,896 I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING A PERFECT JOB, 1573 01:18:18,896 --> 01:18:22,344 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW I DID WORSE THAN LAST TIME. 1574 01:18:22,344 --> 01:18:24,344 I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS, BUT I'M SCARED DR. NOW 1575 01:18:24,344 --> 01:18:27,896 IS GONNA TELL ME I'M DONE, AND IT'S JUST OVER FOR ME. 1576 01:18:32,827 --> 01:18:35,758 HI, SEANA. HI. 1577 01:18:35,758 --> 01:18:37,344 HOW ARE YOU? 1578 01:18:37,344 --> 01:18:39,758 I'M GOOD. OKAY, GOOD. 1579 01:18:39,758 --> 01:18:41,793 WELL, IT LOOK LIKE YOU GAINED 1580 01:18:41,793 --> 01:18:44,689 ALMOST DOUBLE THE WEIGHT YOU GAINED LAST TIME. 1581 01:18:44,689 --> 01:18:48,448 SO, NOT ONLY ARE YOU STILL HEADED IN THE WRONG DIRECTION, 1582 01:18:48,448 --> 01:18:52,689 YOU'RE GOING DOWN THE WRONG PATH EVEN FASTER NOW. 1583 01:18:52,689 --> 01:18:55,896 YOU TELL ME, WHY DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT? 1584 01:18:55,896 --> 01:18:59,275 I REALLY DON'T KNOW. I JUST REALLY DON'T KNOW. 1585 01:18:59,275 --> 01:19:00,482 WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW? 1586 01:19:00,482 --> 01:19:02,620 COULD IT BE THAT YOU'RE OVEREATING? 1587 01:19:02,620 --> 01:19:04,655 PROBABLY. 1588 01:19:04,655 --> 01:19:08,344 SO, WHEN YOU GONNA CHANGE? 1589 01:19:08,344 --> 01:19:11,758 UM... 1590 01:19:11,758 --> 01:19:12,931 TODAY. 1591 01:19:12,931 --> 01:19:16,827 TODAY? SO WHAT HAPPENED LAST MONTH, 1592 01:19:16,827 --> 01:19:19,275 WHAT HAPPENED COUPLE MONTHS AGO, 1593 01:19:19,275 --> 01:19:21,655 WHAT HAPPENED LAST YEAR? 1594 01:19:21,655 --> 01:19:23,344 YOU KEEP SAYING THE SAME THING, 1595 01:19:23,344 --> 01:19:25,896 BUT WE'RE NOT MAKING ANY PROGRESS. 1596 01:19:31,827 --> 01:19:32,862 YEAH. 1597 01:19:32,862 --> 01:19:36,172 DID YOU SEE DR. PARADISE AGAIN? 1598 01:19:36,172 --> 01:19:38,310 YEAH, YES, SIR. 1599 01:19:38,310 --> 01:19:41,448 DO YOU FEEL LIKE PSYCHOTHERAPY IS HELPING YOU AT ALL? 1600 01:19:41,448 --> 01:19:43,275 YEAH, ACTUALLY, YEAH. 1601 01:19:43,275 --> 01:19:45,620 HOW? 1602 01:19:45,620 --> 01:19:47,275 I'M NOT SURE. 1603 01:19:47,275 --> 01:19:50,620 IF YOU'RE NOT SURE, THEN IT'S NOT REALLY HELPING YOU YET, 1604 01:19:50,620 --> 01:19:52,275 SO THAT'S NOT GOOD. 1605 01:19:52,275 --> 01:19:54,793 AND AT THIS POINT, YOU'RE NOT MAKING ANY PROGRESS, 1606 01:19:54,793 --> 01:19:56,517 YOU'RE GAINING YOUR WEIGHT, 1607 01:19:56,517 --> 01:19:59,689 AND NOTHING WE DO IS HELPING CHANGE THAT. 1608 01:19:59,689 --> 01:20:03,172 SO, WE'RE NOT MAKING ANY IMPROVEMENT 1609 01:20:03,172 --> 01:20:05,103 WITH ANYTHING WE DO. 1610 01:20:05,103 --> 01:20:09,068 WITH YOUR BMI, IT'S ALMOST 100, 1611 01:20:09,068 --> 01:20:12,310 AND THAT'S A VERY DANGEROUS SITUATION YOU HAVE. 1612 01:20:12,310 --> 01:20:15,137 BUT, SEANA, HERE'S THE SITUATION. 1613 01:20:15,137 --> 01:20:18,448 YOU JUST TURNED 23 YEARS OLD, RIGHT? 1614 01:20:18,448 --> 01:20:20,068 YOUR BMI 100, 1615 01:20:20,068 --> 01:20:24,448 AND YOU DON'T HAVE ANY SUPPORT FROM YOUR FAMILY. 1616 01:20:24,448 --> 01:20:31,206 YOU'RE ALONE, AND YOU HAVE DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, 1617 01:20:31,206 --> 01:20:35,965 AND MULTIPLE ISSUES THAT YOU NEED TO TAKE CARE OF. 1618 01:20:35,965 --> 01:20:38,931 I KNOW IT'S VERY HARD WHEN YOU ARE ALONE, 1619 01:20:38,931 --> 01:20:40,241 BUT YOU HAVE TO DECIDE 1620 01:20:40,241 --> 01:20:43,310 IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR SITUATION AND LIVE, 1621 01:20:43,310 --> 01:20:47,482 OR IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE ON THIS PATH YOU ARE ON. 1622 01:20:47,482 --> 01:20:50,931 AND UNTIL YOU DECIDE TO START MAKING THE CHANGES YOU NEED, 1623 01:20:50,931 --> 01:20:54,655 THEN THERE IS NO REASON FOR US TO KEEP DOING THIS. 1624 01:20:54,655 --> 01:20:56,862 BUT WE'LL HELP YOU GET SOME HOUSING 1625 01:20:56,862 --> 01:20:59,586 IF YOU WANT SOME GROUP-HOME OPTIONS. 1626 01:20:59,586 --> 01:21:02,827 AND WE'LL ALSO KEEP PROVIDING YOU WITH PSYCHOTHERAPY 1627 01:21:02,827 --> 01:21:05,000 IF YOU'LL COMMIT TO KEEP GOING TO THAT. 1628 01:21:05,000 --> 01:21:08,275 AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, YOU CAN CALL ME. 1629 01:21:08,275 --> 01:21:11,379 BUT OTHERWISE, NOTHING WE'RE DOING IS WORKING, 1630 01:21:11,379 --> 01:21:14,896 AND WE ARE OUT OF OPTIONS WITH NOWHERE TO GO WITH YOU. 1631 01:21:14,896 --> 01:21:17,448 BUT IF YOU START TAKING THE INITIATIVE YOU NEED 1632 01:21:17,448 --> 01:21:19,758 AND START MAKING THE RIGHT CHANGES 1633 01:21:19,758 --> 01:21:21,586 AND LOSE AT LEAST 50 POUNDS, 1634 01:21:21,586 --> 01:21:25,413 THEN WE'LL PICK BACK UP WITH YOU, OKAY? 1635 01:21:25,413 --> 01:21:26,862 OKAY. 1636 01:21:26,862 --> 01:21:28,793 ALRIGHT. I HOPE TO SEE YOU 1637 01:21:28,793 --> 01:21:30,862 START TO TAKE SOME INITIATIVE 1638 01:21:30,862 --> 01:21:32,931 AND DO THIS AT SOME POINT. 1639 01:21:32,931 --> 01:21:36,379 BEFORE THEN, IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 1640 01:21:36,379 --> 01:21:37,482 OKAY. OKAY. 1641 01:21:43,586 --> 01:21:46,482 AT THIS POINT, WE'VE GIVEN SEANA A YEAR 1642 01:21:46,482 --> 01:21:48,517 TO START DOING WHAT SHE NEEDS 1643 01:21:48,517 --> 01:21:51,413 AND SHOW ME SHE'S READY TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND, 1644 01:21:51,413 --> 01:21:53,241 BUT SHE HASN'T DONE THAT. 1645 01:21:53,241 --> 01:21:54,758 AND THERE IS NO REASON FOR THAT, 1646 01:21:54,758 --> 01:21:57,068 OTHER THAN SHE DOESN'T REALLY WANT TO 1647 01:21:57,068 --> 01:22:01,172 BECAUSE SHE ULTIMATELY HOPES SOMEONE WILL COME DO IT FOR HER. 1648 01:22:01,172 --> 01:22:03,206 BUT WITH HOW FAST SHE'S GAINING 1649 01:22:03,206 --> 01:22:05,379 AND HOW HIGH HER WEIGHT ALREADY IS, 1650 01:22:05,379 --> 01:22:08,068 WE HAVE A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION WITH HER. 1651 01:22:08,068 --> 01:22:11,620 BECAUSE IF IT GETS TO A POINT WHERE SHE LOSES HER MOBILITY, 1652 01:22:11,620 --> 01:22:15,793 HER LIFESPAN WILL START TO DECLINE RAPIDLY. 1653 01:22:15,793 --> 01:22:19,068 SO WE'LL KEEP WORKING TO TRY TO GET THROUGH TO HER. 1654 01:22:19,068 --> 01:22:22,448 AND I THINK THE BEST AND ONLY THING TO DO RIGHT NOW 1655 01:22:22,448 --> 01:22:24,689 IS TO FOCUS ON PSYCHOTHERAPY, 1656 01:22:24,689 --> 01:22:26,965 AND WE'LL CONTINUE TO PROVIDE THAT FOR HER 1657 01:22:26,965 --> 01:22:29,137 IN THE HOPE THAT THEY'LL BE ABLE TO START 1658 01:22:29,137 --> 01:22:31,689 MAKING SOME PROGRESS WITH HER. 1659 01:22:31,689 --> 01:22:35,896 OTHER THAN THAT, THERE IS NOT MUCH MORE WE CAN DO FOR HER. 1660 01:22:35,896 --> 01:22:37,758 AND WE WON'T BE MOVING AHEAD 1661 01:22:37,758 --> 01:22:40,413 OR CONSIDERING ANY NEXT STEP WITH HER 1662 01:22:40,413 --> 01:22:44,172 UNTIL SHE START TO SHOW ME SHE'S MAKING SOME REAL PROGRESS 1663 01:22:44,172 --> 01:22:46,448 WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS LIKE SHE NEEDS. 1664 01:22:46,448 --> 01:22:50,000 BUT IF ANY POINT SHE'S READY TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS, 1665 01:22:50,000 --> 01:22:51,448 WE'LL BE HERE FOR HER, 1666 01:22:51,448 --> 01:22:55,965 WAITING TO HELP HER AND SUPPORT HER HOWEVER WE CAN. 1667 01:22:55,965 --> 01:22:58,413 Seana: I THINK I STILL FEEL NUMB. 1668 01:22:58,413 --> 01:23:01,586 AND IT'S LIKE MY BRAIN'S STILL NOT REGISTERING ALL OF THIS. 1669 01:23:01,586 --> 01:23:03,482 I JUST NEED SOME TIME TO THINK. 1670 01:23:03,482 --> 01:23:06,931 I'M JUST TRYING TO PROCESS THIS AND FIGURE THIS OUT 1671 01:23:06,931 --> 01:23:08,517 AND WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 1672 01:23:18,310 --> 01:23:21,103 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS PRETTY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF 1673 01:23:21,103 --> 01:23:23,137 AND HOW I MESSED UP. 1674 01:23:23,137 --> 01:23:25,724 BUT I'VE HAD SOME TIME TO PROCESS, 1675 01:23:25,724 --> 01:23:27,827 AND I TALKED TO DR. NOW AGAIN, 1676 01:23:27,827 --> 01:23:29,758 AND I ASKED HIM IF THERE'S ANYTHING ELSE I CAN DO 1677 01:23:29,758 --> 01:23:33,000 TO KEEP TRYING TO DO HIS PROGRAM. 1678 01:23:33,000 --> 01:23:35,724 AND HE TOLD ME IF I COMMITTED TO DOING THE PSYCHOTHERAPY 1679 01:23:35,724 --> 01:23:39,586 TWICE A MONTH FOR SIX MONTHS, THEN I COULD TRY AGAIN. 1680 01:23:39,586 --> 01:23:41,310 I TOLD HIM I'M WILLING TO DO THAT. 1681 01:23:41,310 --> 01:23:43,482 I WANT TO TRY AND FIGURE THIS OUT, 1682 01:23:43,482 --> 01:23:45,482 BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO LET MYSELF FAIL. 1683 01:23:45,482 --> 01:23:49,275 AND I PLAN TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD. 1684 01:23:49,275 --> 01:23:51,482 I'M TAKING A BIG STEP TOWARDS THAT TODAY 1685 01:23:51,482 --> 01:23:55,551 BY GETTING SOME LONG-TERM HOUSING HERE IN HOUSTON. 1686 01:23:55,551 --> 01:23:56,896 -HI. -HI. 1687 01:23:56,896 --> 01:23:58,689 I'M GONNA TAKE YOU OVER HERE WHERE WE CAN SIT DOWN, 1688 01:23:58,689 --> 01:24:00,172 YOU CAN START FILLING IT OUT, OKAY? 1689 01:24:00,172 --> 01:24:03,310 OKAY. 1690 01:24:03,310 --> 01:24:06,000 I THOUGHT ABOUT THE GROUP-HOME IDEA DR. NOW SAID, 1691 01:24:06,000 --> 01:24:07,965 BUT I THINK LIVING ON MY OWN IS WHAT I NEED. 1692 01:24:07,965 --> 01:24:10,137 SO I FOUND A FINANCIALLY ASSISTED PLACE 1693 01:24:10,137 --> 01:24:12,172 THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO AFFORD. 1694 01:24:12,172 --> 01:24:13,931 Ashley: AND IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, 1695 01:24:13,931 --> 01:24:15,103 WE'LL BE HERE TO HELP YOU. 1696 01:24:15,103 --> 01:24:16,758 THANK YOU. ALRIGHT. 1697 01:24:16,758 --> 01:24:19,965 OKAY. 1698 01:24:19,965 --> 01:24:21,896 I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE 1699 01:24:21,896 --> 01:24:24,827 I'M GETTING A LITTLE BIT MORE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE. 1700 01:24:24,827 --> 01:24:26,241 I ALSO ASKED DR. NOW 1701 01:24:26,241 --> 01:24:28,275 FOR SOME HELP WITH EXERCISE PROGRAMS, 1702 01:24:28,275 --> 01:24:31,586 AND I TOLD HIM HOW MUCH I LOVE POOLS. 1703 01:24:31,586 --> 01:24:34,482 SO, HE SET ME UP TO START DOING POOL AEROBICS, 1704 01:24:34,482 --> 01:24:36,620 AND I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THAT. 1705 01:24:40,689 --> 01:24:43,275 WHAT DR. NOW TOLD ME WAS A BIG WAKE-UP CALL. 1706 01:24:43,275 --> 01:24:47,103 LOSING THIS CHANCE MEANS LOSING EVERYTHING. 1707 01:24:47,103 --> 01:24:50,689 AND I KNOW NO ONE IS GOING TO COME HELP ME AND SAVE ME. 1708 01:24:50,689 --> 01:24:53,206 I HAVE TO DO IT AND MAKE THE CHOICES THAT I NEED, 1709 01:24:53,206 --> 01:24:56,586 AND I'M READY TO START DOING THAT NOW. 1710 01:24:56,586 --> 01:24:59,068 SO, I'M GONNA DO THE THERAPY AND WORK HARD ON EVERYTHING 1711 01:24:59,068 --> 01:25:01,482 DR. PARADISE TELLS ME TO WORK ON 1712 01:25:01,482 --> 01:25:04,448 AND KEEP DOING THE EXERCISES AND DIET. 1713 01:25:04,448 --> 01:25:08,034 AND THEN, IN SIX MONTHS, MY HOPE AND PLAN IS TO TELL DR. NOW, 1714 01:25:08,034 --> 01:25:10,103 "I THINK I'M READY TO SEE WHERE I'M AT" 1715 01:25:10,103 --> 01:25:13,379 AND IF I MADE THE PROGRESS I NEED TO BE BACK ON HIS PROGRAM, 1716 01:25:13,379 --> 01:25:15,379 BECAUSE I'M READY TO HAVE MY LIFE. 1717 01:25:15,379 --> 01:25:18,586 NO MATTER HOW HARD IT GETS OR HOW MUCH I STRUGGLE, 1718 01:25:18,586 --> 01:25:22,379 I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP AND LOSE THIS CHANCE. 1719 01:25:22,379 --> 01:25:26,586 IT TOOK A WHILE, BUT I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I'M READY TO CHANGE 1720 01:25:26,586 --> 01:25:29,275 AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE 1721 01:25:29,275 --> 01:25:30,620 AND GET WHAT I WANT. 1722 01:25:30,620 --> 01:25:32,241 I'M NOT LETTING ANYTHING DISCOURAGE ME OR STOP ME